Confessions

2006-01-05T19:09:00.000+08:00

Mdm Azean, is my Maths teacher. I love her to bits and pieces. Why? She teaches and explains in a quite very detail way. Mr Hardi, my English teacher, I think he's going to be fine. He was nice just now though. I'm not sure about the way he teaches, but I'm hoping he won't get mad while teaching us. Malay class, I always feel like sleeping just 1/2 hour before class ends, it's good that Cikgu Zainal communicate with us, but I think he talks alot, and that is the reason why I always feel sleepy.

I realised now that people love to use big words when writing a journal/composition and etc. The funny thing is, when using the big words, I find it very funny the way they put it up in a sentence. I always check my dictionary whenever I don't understand a particular word. Like hello, who doesn't? Back to the sentence, they don't really understand that particular word, but still use it in their sentence which is not suitable to explain the way it is. Okay maybe they want people to think that their English is extremely good. But hey, they should actually check the dictionary first, then see if it really suits the sentence to explain it. Like hello, why can't you just use simple, basic english? I wonder if blogger has any competitions on "Speak good english". Seriously, no offence. The reason I write like this because I have been browsing to blogs and find these mistakes. I know I shouldn't spot people's mistakes when me myself am not right, but yeah, I just find it very funny. Heh!

As usual, my day went fine. My day went much more brighter whenever he's around/beside me. My cheeky, lovely boyfriend. (=

2005-12-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

My uncle got married last Sunday. The decorations was simple yet very sweet and romantic. Blue and white was the colour, add up with a vase with 4 stalks of white roses and two small fishes in it, on every table. Sweet. (=

Being the anak sedara, I had to be the kendarat. Kental, I know. Picking up those plates from the guest's table, walking here and there, it was tiring. Very tiring. Especially with my heels on. My leg was in a deep pain. On top of that, I became the kendarat yang 24jam mencekik the epok-epok(word: Currypuffs) yang sungguh lazat itu. Hehehe. The currypuffs was well fried. Golden yellow, the crisps, it was hot even. How delicious. *drools*

Yesterday night, the family plus one cousin went over to Johor to top up the car's beer. Hehe. Minyak laa oik! Was on the way to the food place when I noticed the big sea right beside me. So a question suddenly popped in my head. So since my cousin, Haikal, was seating next to me, I decided to ask him.

Me: Ehh! Luas ah laut nih. I wonder how people masuk secara haram sampai sanggup swimming. Isk!

Haikal: A'ah ehh, asal diorang tak pakai kayak ehh. Bodoh ahh.

Me: Otak kau. Orang nak sembunyi-sembunyi masuk secara haram, kau nak masuk secara haram pakai kayak? Klau kena tangkap camner! *laughing away*

Haikal: What a stupid question you are asking, if I was the victim, I would say this to the police, 'Oh I'm sorry. I was just canoe-ing'

Hahahaha. I find it kind of funny okeh! With his face so blur answering my question. Hehehe. Any stupid me, asking my cousin whom is just Primary 6 this year. Full of nonsense ahh him!

Today, watched Hindustan over at dear's house. I forgotten the title. The story, ohh. Sweet. Romantic. (= The story was about two guys, Prem Kishen and Prem Kumar(I think its Prem Kumar, okeh shit. I forgotten the name). Prem Kishen whom is supposed to go and meet his bride-to-be family and the bride itself, Sanjana. hE couldn't make it on the day that it was set. So he decided to send his friend, Prem Kumar(I think its Prem Kumar, but what I know both names has Prem), as a replace as not wanting to dissapoint the bride-to-be family. Prem Kumar, whom had so much fun staying with the family, had forgotten to tell the family itself that he was not Prem Kishen. And, the rest you have to find out yourself. Hehehe. One of the scene takes place in a car, and it goes like this.

Prem Kumar: Can I ask you a guy kind of question?

Sanjana: Yes.

Prem Kumar: Do girls easily forget things?

Sanjana: NO. But guys do.

Prem Kumar. Really?

Sanjana: *walks out of the car, walking fastly as she could when she suddenly stopped*

Prem Kumar: *followed behind her*

Sanjana: *turned behind*

Prem Kumar: You left this, at the house just now. (The this is her handbag)

Sanjana: *rolls eyes and walk away*

Hehe. The guy do know what she wants, what she forget and stuffs. (=

While watching the show, dear switched off the television. Hmphh! Why? Because it was time to eat. As for you know, I am not to be disturbed when watching television because I really concentrate on the show/movie, so when that person talks to me, I won't reply neither nod my head or whatever. Hehehe.

His dad cooked Nasi Goreng. So I quickly finish up my part(actually half of it, the other half I put it on dear's plate. Hehe), helped out to wash the dishes, and quickly I turned on the television again. Anyways, his dad Nasi Goreng was superb! =D

Left at 6.30pm. I was rushing to go home though. Dear can even take his own sweet time to set his hair and stuffs. Hmph! I went down first because I wanted him to get ready as fast as possible. Hehehe. On the way to the busstop,

Dear: Can I ask you a guy kind of question?

Me: Yes.

Dear: Do girls easily forget things?

Me: NO! *saying with full confidence*

Dear: Are you really sure?

Me: Yes. Usually guys tend to forget things okeh!

Dear: Then what is this? *showing my headband*

Me: Hehehehe! Eh a'ah laa!

Dear: *hugging me tightly*

Hehehe. I thought he was just following and copying the story. Hehehe!

He may be forgetful at times, but I'm the more careless one.

Selamat Pengantin Baru Uncle ku!

And Rafiq darling, you're such a sweetheart. *mwah*

2005-11-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

LOVING YOU, SWEETHEART

[Beat: all my only dreams]

[Mood: Happy!]

I was almost about to lose my faith

Was still dreaming but feared it was too late

But then you came along to my surprise

and stole my heart before my very eyes

Chorus:

You took me right out of the blue

simply by showing that you love me too

only by giving me your everything

with a love so true

you took me out of the blue

I was wondering what love was all about

I was trying but couldn't work it out

But then you came along to my surprise

and made my frozen mind come alive

Chorus:

You took me right out of the blue

simply by showing that you love me too

You let me out of the darkness

you brought me out in the sun

I think you must be the only one for me

'cos you took me

Chorus:

Right out of the blue.

simply by showing that you love me too

only by giving me your everything

breathing air below my wings

You took me right out of the night

simply by filling my heart with light

only by giving me your energy

with a love so true you took me out of the blue

This song, I love. (= It was dedicated to me, from my dearest Rafiq. (= Last week, chilled over at his house. Was peacely resting at his room when he came in and told me to listen to 'our songs'. He loves this song soo much because it represents his life of how much he is happy being with me, how thankful he is to get to know me, on how much I make his life, wonderfully. I cried in his arms. It was sooo sweet of him.

Okeh you all might be like, 'Haha. It's not a big deal what. It's just a guy dedicating a song and bla bla bla'. Well, that is you. But it really is something for me. He kept repeating that song and kept telling me his feelings, on how much his life means now, on how much he loves me and more. I love you sweetheart. *bigggg kisssess!* (=

Okeh now, I did went for Outward Bound Singapore you know? Hehehe. Only for one day. Yes people, ONE DAY. So I was approved to sent back home. Hehe. Why? I had a very very bad headache, and yes, I cried. Why? Because everytime my headache strike, my dearest Rafiq is always right by my side, massaging my head, keeps me in his arms, keeping sure I am alright. I couldn't sleep and I cried thinking about my family and him. I fell asleep while crying. Time flies very very slow down there. Each group started their activity like 7am in the morning. AND! The water there is freezing I tell you! I was bathing at night, I was all freezed up, my legs were all shaking. Sigh. In every situation that I had, for example, when I couldn't stand cold-ness, when my stuffs was heavy, my headaches, my meals, etc etc, it was always him that keeps me warm, carried my heavy stuffs, healed my pains. My dearest, precious Rafiq plays a big, and a important role in my life. Yes people, I am one pampered girl everytime I am with him. He manjakan me soo much you know. Hehe. Love you sweetheart.

Okeh back to OBS, dad picked me up from Punggol Jetty since I was approved to get home. When I reach home, I lied down on my bed and said this to myself, 'It's good to be back home again.' And I smiled to myself. (= The next thing I did was, called him at his grandmother's house.

Me: Hello, Rafiq ader?

Nadhirah: Hello? "Eh aqeel bebual, tak dengar sangat ah", *quickly pass the phone to aqeel*

Aqeel: Hello? Ni siaper?

Me: Ni Kak Liyana laa. Rafiq ader?

Aqeel: Kejap ehh. "Rafiq! Your wife!!" *quickly pass the phone to Rafiq*

Rafiq: Hello?

Me: Hello darling!!!

Rafiq: Eh dear!! Where are you?! *wondering*

Me: I'm at home laa!

Rafiq: But i thought you went OBS?

Me: I was sick, so i was approved to go home.

Rafiq: Really?! *sounds so excited* Good! I miss you sooo much tau dear. I kept counting the days sehh. Lagi 4 hari macam 40 hari you nak balek.

Me: I miss you too tau! I kept thinking of you.

Rafiq: *Asking alot of questions on how fun it was, how come I was sick and stuffs*

Me: *answering all the questions he asked* Padahal pegi saner cumer 1day ajer. Hehe.

Rafiq: *feeling sooo excited* You! I want meet you tomorrow, I wanna hug you tightly, and I wanna kiss you and never let go!

Me: Okeh dear. See you tomorrow.

Rafiq: Okeh! Love youu soooo much tau! Missing you sooo much!! *mwahhhsss* bye!

Me: Love you soooo much tooo tau!! Missing you even more!! *mmmwwwaaaahhhhsss!* bye!

(= Loving you sweetheart. And for your info, aqeel and nadhirah is his adek sedara. Yeap. So again, met him at his house as we have alot of things to share with. It's like 40days we didn't meet each other. We had sooo many stuffs to tell about. Hehehe. And he gave me a surprise, he bought me a skirt and a pink top. PINK you! It's nice and lovely. (= And Ohh! And since he knows I was still tired, he cooked. (= Tom Yam you! Delicious okeh! (= So now, I'm back to the pampered Liyana. Heh.

Rafiq, I love you, darling.

2005-11-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

FINALLY

[Beat:-]

[Mood:-]

I AM ONE HAPPY GIRL. I AM THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD. Hehehe. Like finally! I got it! I got it! EH PEOPLE! I GOT IT ALREADY LAA!! *smiles widely*

Okeh know what I am so excited about?

This is what I was soo excited about.

It has to twist and turn the screen like this, in order to take pictures. ((=

AND! The camera has got flash too YOU KNOW!

That is what I am sooo excited about yesterday. (= I tell you, the functions are great. The camera is much more greater. Weeeeee~

Lalalalalalala. I am so so soooo happy. Hehehe. Thank you for everything darling! The greatest and the sweetest gift ever! I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH LAAA! YOU ARE SOOOO SWEET OKEHS! *mwahhhhhhhhsssss**biggeeesssttttt hug ever!*

2005-11-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT!

[Beat: On Saturdays]

[Mood: EXCITED YOU!]

I can't wait for tomorrow! =D Wanna know why? Hmmm. You really want to know?

Okeh okeh I tell you laa okeh.

Tomorrow I will post a picture up, and you will know why I'm so excited about it.

Hahaha.

Guess what it is already? Noo?

Then I guess, you havto wait until tomorrow! *evil laughs!*

Credits to who? My dearest Rafiq! I am one lucky, very very lucky girl. Oh oh oh! I love you sweetheart! You know I always do. (= *mmmmwwwaaahhhhsssssss!!*

2005-11-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOOOOOOOO.

[Beat: -]

[Mood: -]

It's been ages since I blog. I think. Heh. Anyways, family raya outing seems to be like not ending. How many aunties I actually have huh? Haha. Me myself am not sure. Hellloooo mum, dad, granny, grandad, aunties, uncles, we only have one more week until raya ends okeh. Better finish up all the visiting and cekik-ing all those delicious, nice kuehs and foods. I think I gain weight. But Hanani told me yesterday that I totally lose weight and she even commented that my body looks better the last time she saw me. She said I'm too skinny. Hmm.

19 November. My 18th month anniversary with dear. (= what brightens up my day was when my dearest rafiq said this to me, 'You look different today dear. You look beautiful today.' I blushed.

Dad and my 3 other uncles went to KL to visit my great grandmother. I hope she's fine. Insyaallah.

Today, went to Atok Rahmat's house at Pasir Ris. Courtesy of Kak Norin, thank you for driving. (=

My dancing session with Hanani, Hidayaty and Siti was superb! WNJ crews was fun! Friendly, funny, sporting. Only we girls will know how fun our day was and what went through. Right girls? =D FUN GILER YOU!

It's one more week more to my OBS trip. Should I go? As for you know, I am known for the very penakut, I'm telling you, I am very very scared of heights, really really. If I'm at a 16th storey floor, I feel like jumping down. Weird kan? I know laa. I am very very scared of dark. And when I get scared, I will tend to think nonsense-ly. Really. Now, I 'm not sure if I can stand the darkness, the smelly-ness, the tent-ness, the canoe-ness, the waking up early, the you-must-get-ready as early as 7am, the far-ness from my family, my home, my bed, my teddy penguin. AND, I'm not sure if I really can stand the not meeting or even calling to hear my dearest rafiq face/voice for 1 WEEK.

How?

2005-11-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

MONEY IN MY POCKET

[ Beat: Until her heart stops ]

[ Mood: Err. Un-tell-able? ]

My Hari Raya was a blast! (= Like the past years, I enjoyed myself, yes, I enjoyed myself very very much. As usual, took thousands of pictures. Second day, as usual, reserved a bus. It was very very kecoh. I was pretty pissed off on the third day of hari raya, when Fifah told me that the camera pictures was all gone. ALL GONE! I went like, 'what?!!! how come the pictures can go gone?!!! which idiot delete it?!! arghhh!' And she replied, 'Entah. bila aku bangun tido pagi tadi, aku nampak battery dengan memory card ader pat luar camera. Bila aku masukkan balik, camera cakap, 'no image'.' I didn't believe though. Know why? Because once I took out the batteries and the memory card and when I inserted it back, the pictures are all finely fine and it is still the same pictures that I took. NOTHING WAS DELETED OR GONE. That was what I exactly told her, and she replied, 'Aku tak tau ah, pasal aku pernah tanya orang camera asal camera kita gini, org tu ckp yang camera tak boleh pakai banyak sangat flash.' WTF. FLASH? WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH FLASH HUH?! Relas liyana, relax. Nevermind, what has happened, are all memories. BUT MY PICTURES ARE GONE! Okeh shut up shut up.

The outing with friends was fun+tired. Assembled at Ifah's crib. Ate and ate and ate. Oh yes, I'm in love with Siti Nur's spaghetti. Heh. It's sooo yummylicious okeh! Those who tasted it should know. Right? (= Completed about err i don't know how many cribs. But what I know, we went to alot of cribs. Heh. I almost went flat at Noramira's crib at Punggol. Was so tired okeh! Reached home at about 12am.

Yesterday, out again. Assembled at my crib. This time, went out with only Dear, Shaiful, Shafiq, Khalifee, Syahmi, Nasri, Taufiq, Zarifah, Hanani and myself. 10 people, but with our kecoh-ness, it was like 20 people. Hehe. Completed our cribs. Reached home close to 12am, again.

And! I counted my hari raya money. Hehe. Collected quite a big sum. Not to show off laa, tapi saya sangat happy pasal saya boleh ber-shopping hingga saya jatuh. (=

SAYA SAYANG RAFIQ TAU. *CIUM RAFIQ BANYAK-BANYAK!*

*Liyana melambai-lambai kepada semua pembaca blog-nya.*

2005-11-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Today, is the very very last day of Ramadhan. Time sure really do flies. Sad, because it's the last day of Ramadhan. Hearing the Takbir just now, I cried. I remembered of my late grandmother, who died on 01 January 2001. Yes, 01-01-01. And that year, she died on the 6th day of Hari Raya. Secondly, I remembered those time back when I celebrated Hari Raya with my first mum. Just the three of us, My mum, dad and myself. How great and peaceful. But all that are just memories. Things changed. My family life changed. Sigh. How does a real family feels like? I do get jealous whenever I see a happy family. Blearghs. Those things are all that I think of each and every year whenever the last day of Ramadhan arrive.

Now now, I shouldn't be sad. (=

I met my lovely boyfriend just now. (= I am soooo happy to meet him because I miss him so bloody much! The last time I met him was last thursday, oh yes, I had soo much fun shopping with his family last thurday, but Ain wasn't there though.

Okeh let's get back to today. Passed dear his Baju Kurung which I changed the button because he detest the original button. Haha. After which, went shoppink! (= Bought my accessories. Loads of accessories. Heh. Bought a shoe AGAIN! hehe. From Charles and Keith. AND! A bag from Charles and Keith too! Charles and Keith is having their End of Year sale. APE LAGI, I BEDAL LAA! hehe. Soo now, I got two heels. One from Bonia, and another from Charles and Keith. Two bags. Hehe! While busy shoppink, Liya suddenly strucked my mind. Haiyooo. SOOO! I bought her shoes from Kiddy Palace. TWO shoes okehhh!!! TWO! Berhari raya betul laa dier. Hmphh!

Going geylang with the cousins at 1am today. Kak Norin is driving. (= This year is the last year of Bazaar-ing. Because Geylang will be renovated next year. Sooo, feel the Geylang for the last year.

Well well. Busy now. Update after Raya okeh? (=

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KAWAN-KAWAN!

2005-10-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

This post is specially for Ms.Raodah. And an entertainment for all you guys who popped by my blog. So people, presenting, my-oh-so-lovely, my cutie, my sweetie pie, my one and only sister.

This is, Lesta Liya Bte Suraidi, whom is soon going to turn nine months old end of the month. (=

Hello. My name is Lesta Liya.

See how busy she is playing her toys.

Spider-girl. See see see. Now's she's busy climbing up here and there. Bertuah punyer budak!

Peek-a-boo!

Uztazah Liya. (=

My point of view, she soo looks like casper down here. Heh.

Thank you for viewing me. I am soo happy. (=

And! My picture pun kena post laa. Heh.

Okeh that's for today. I'm lazy to type a long entry due to my right hand is still so weak. Sweetheart, thank you for everything today. You make my heart melt, and you make fall in love with you, deeper and deeper. I love you so much! *mwahss!*

2005-10-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TYPE IN HERE

[ Beat: - ]

Monday. Blearghs. As usual, games was being held. But, I slept in my classroom throughout the games period. I was awaken by Hudah, told me to get Sheila at the Basketball Court as she came to school pretty late. Checking of scripts was right after recess which was at 11.30am. Maths, my oh-so-hatest-subject-but-I-tried-my-very-best, was worst. Haha. Don't ask me about Mathematics. Science, my going-to-be-my-favourite-subject, I failed by 5 marks. Shithead betul. I wanna go and meet Mr.Lee. I want my 5 marks!! Hmphs! English, Computer Applications, Elements of Office Administration and Malay, I am quite satisfied with the results. Alhamdulillah.

After school, went over dear's granny house. Helped her out. Went straight to meet Hafeez, Hafiz and Hidayat at the busstop after that. Followed dear to alter his pants. Later, went all the way back to Hafeez house, to get his money. As dear and me wanted to find our baju kurung for Hari Raya, Hafeez decided to get his too. Went all round and round Geylang Bazaar. I was the Tour Guide for the day. Haha. Got Hafeez baju kurung first, because dear's baju kurung was hard to find as he wanted the exact same colour as mine. Heh. Went all the way round again, and at last, got dear's. And finally, he is satisfied with the colour and the pattern of the baju kurung. Bought some food stuffs for Hafeez's mummy, and off the five of us went home, as we are extremely exhausted. Broke fast over at dear's place. Went home after that. (=

Upon reaching home, saw dad's car. He was in a rush to go for terawih as he will be leading for today's terawih, so ibu just throw all the things out from the car, because dad was seriously in a rush. Haha. Went to the clinic after that, to check whether I am fit to attend the Outward Bound Singapore. And! I was injected! Stupid doctor! Hmph! The form said, 'Date of last Tetanus Immunization', not, 'To be injected'!! Hmmphhh!! According to my Health Booklet, it was years ago since I had that injection, the injection is for bacteria kind of thing, one injection last for about two years. And! My hand is all weak okeh. Very pain tau! I even cried while ironing my unifrom just now. The iron is like too heavy for me to lift it up. Heh. I'm typing this entry slowly by the way. Heh.

And, to Raodah, I will post my little sister pictures tomorrow okeh? Just wait and see! Heh. Okeh bye people!

2005-10-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

TIME FLIES

[ Beat: It's you that matters ]

Hari raya will be in about two weeks time? Gosh. Time flies. That explains my title for today. And, I haven't yet had my bath. Haha. Why? Busy making delicacy. Kueh tart to be exact. Did loads. And I smell like a tart already. Heh. Leg cramps. I've been sitting down from 9+ am till in the afternoon. Took pictures while doing it. Update it some other time okeh? I lazy laa people.

Shopping yesterday. Liyana+Kak Norin= two mad womens in town. Yes. We went shopping like crazy. Oh and I bought my shoe for hari raya. (= So, I got my accessories, with great deals(only Kak Norin knows. Heh. Right kak? (= ), bag, and more laa. Shopping craze. Heh.

And! I get to go to Outward Bound Singapore. (= Together with Sheila&Seha. Should I go? Hmm. Still thinking. It's probably from 28 November till 2nd December. Lama oii! But it's once in a lifetime you know. Hanani told me once that if I ever get this promotion, I should go. Nevermind, I'm going to call her later. Thousands of stories to share with, where should I start from? Heh. Okeh back to my decision, certainly, dear disagree of me going this so called camping. Why? Because he will miss me so damn bloody much, and he is worried of my safety there. He is worried because he knows I can't take good care of myself. Heh.

Oh well, I wanna go and take my bath. Haha. Okeh people you may laugh. Okeh laa. Bye!

2005-10-21T11:44:00.000+08:00

FACE THE REALITY

[ Beat: Anarchy in the USA ]

Good morning! Heh. I just woke up. =D Liya woke me up, that's why. She pulled my hair, she kept on 'climbing' at me, I pushed her away, she got mad and pulled my hair with her full strength just because she wanted me to wake up and play with her. Hmphhh.

Today is the Promotion Meeting for teachers. So, students need not report to school. (= And! My father need not come to school to meet Ms Toh, my form teacher. (= Heh. So relieved to hear that okeh! =D

Basically, the three days of schooling, is based on playing Captain's Ball and Floor Ball. Watched Moulin Rouge on Tuesday at the hall. Heh. My favourite movie. (= The games that was held is basically trying to get the class to get together. Let's take Captain's Ball for an example, 5 players for each game, one who scored a goal, must be subsituted. Hmm. But! The only ones who played was the malay boys. Haha. Pathetic. I know. Hello! If it comes to 'getting together' kind of stuffs, secondary 3i1 will not be involved. At times, yes we are one heart, but not all the times. I just don't know why. Okeh let's put that aside.

19th October, my 17th month anniversary with Rafiq dear. (= It was well spent on Monday. Heh. Advanced. I love you sweetheart. *hugs&kisses*

As for today, going over to town to meet Mama, my first mum. Yes, my 'first mum'. As you know my parents are divorced, and my dad got married to another one. That is why I have an instant siblings, Raja Nurfifah and Raja Muhammad Iqrak. Noo. They are not related to any Raja stuffs, is just that they followed something like a keturunan name. You may be wondering why I am not sad or something about the divorce and etc, well, of course I am dissapointed. Which child would want their parents to be divorce right? Nobody wants. But jodoh di tangan tuhan. It's fated that they are not meant to be together. I have to face the reality. And I cannot hate my dad for marrying another one, it's his business, his life. Okeh let's put that one aside.

As I was saying, going over to town to meet Mama. Kak Norin will be accompanying me. Shoppink! =D I know I shop alot last Monday. I bought two tops from Mango, a rusty wallet, a belt and a pencil case from 77th Street. AND! Dear's auntie bought me a top from Mango. So, I got 3 new tops from Mango. Thank you aunt! I love you soo much tauu! Oh yes, I miss you too!Heh. I'm going to get accessories today. (= I want everything laa! Hehehe. I'm going to get dear Winning Eleven 9 today. A new game for Playstation2. I can see that he wants it so badly. So, I'm going to get him one, a belated anniversary gift. It's a surprise btw. Heeks! I bought him Kinder Bueno on the day of our anniversary itself. Heh.

Oh yes! Checking of scripts is on Monday. I don't want to see my Mathematics Paper. I know I did badly.

Oh well. I got to get going. She have to feed and take care of her little sister before she goes out. Hmphhh. Lesta Liya Bte Suraidi, you better behave yourself when I'm taking care of you.

And Rafiq dearest, I miss you alot sweetheart. *mwahs!

2005-10-15T15:05:00.000+08:00

THE DREAM THAT HE DREAMT

[ Beat: All my bestfriends are metalheads ]

Good afternoon darlings! (=

It's Saturday! Yay! Iftar at Kak Sally's place today. Wuhhhh. I wonder what Obek Sana's cooking. Conferm Kak Sally and Abg lizan tak tidur drp sahur tadi. Hahahha. Sorry ahh. No offence. Kak Sally and Abg Zan, if you're reading this, nanti Hari Raya saye mintak maaf bebanyak okeh! Hehehe. Puasa puasa tak baik tau nak marah marah. [ Inserting a cheeky face ]

I was sleeping peacefully when my house phone rang. Hmph. Bising betul. The call was from dearest Rafiq. I checked the time and it was like only 11.30am. Gosh! Forcing myself out of bed, I softly said 'hello'. After hearing what he said, I suddenly was fresh awaken and I laugh loudly. This was what he said,

-''U! Do you know that I mimpi yang u mengandung? Its our baby. So best seh, cam tknk bgn i. Your perut so besar. Hehe. Mwah!''-

Hahaha. See see see. Even I'm laughing now while typing it out. I don't know what's so funny about it. Maybe it's not funny to you, but it's funny to me. The way he said, 'your perut so besar' is like so funny! Duhhh. Helloooo dear, org mengandung mestilah perut besar! Abeh takkan perut kempes ajer! Even an alien mengandung ( do aliens get pregnant? I mean female aliens? And is there any female aliens? Hmm ), perut besar oii!

My cheeky Rafiq. (= He never want to wake up from a dream of us, especially if it's a sweet and romantic dream. Anyway who wants to wake up from a nice nice dream kan? Heh. I love him so much laa! RAFIQ, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART! *big hug* Oh yes, I miss him too. I miss him so badly. =(

Okeh laa, I wanna go and take my bathe. Yes gundus, sotongs, ikans, ketams, I haven't bathe yet. And what time iszit now? 3.11pm. That's according to my computer clock. Haha. I better get ready before granny screams at me because it has been several times she asked me to go and bath.

Okeh then, goodbye darlings! (=

2005-10-13T11:23:00.000+08:00

TURNED A YEAR OLDER

[ Beat: Your so called last summer ]

It's over. Everything's over. YAY!! HEYLOOOO PEOPLE! END OF YEAR EXAMINATIONS IS FINALLY OVER!! WUHHOOOO!!

Okeh, Malay paper was easy. I'm not trying to be so confident here, but really, it's easy. Heh. I am glad the papers are over. Now, my weekends are here, two days off from school, I'm planning to go shopping. Heh. Oh and yes, my teacher distributed a form just now. It was about the end of year examinations stuffs, plus all our off days from school. I was all going like 'yada yada yada' when I read through it. But, this particular paragraph caught my eyes. The paragraph goes like this:

- We will be issuing the report book on 27 October 2005 (thursday) and pupils are not required to report to school at the usual time. We would like to invite parents to accompany their child to school on that day to collect the report book from the form teacher. This will allow us to have a conference with you on your child's performance and discuss plan to help him/her make further improvement. -

Omg! I went all like, 'Eh eh eh! Aku takut ahh!' It's not that I have been a naughty girl in class, but, confirm my dad will ask thousand of questions, and yes, he will ask about my Mathematics results and bla bla bla. I know my Mathematics results will be so bad. Duhh. I hate Mathematics. Ugh. Okeh let's put that aside.

Now, I can't wait for weekends. I can't wait for tomorrow. Heh. Shopping! Buka-ing together, I can't wait laa!! (=

Ouhhhh. Ms Farlinah Bte Mohd Adam, turned 15 today. I forgotten to call her at 12am because I was already asleep! Haha. Olin, may all your wishes and dreams come true okeh? Heart you ladee! *smoochhhh! To end my entry, I shall sing a birthday song.

Happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to Olin,

Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday darling! (=

2005-10-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

Okeh I am bored. Now, I was busy browsing my picture's folder when I crossed through my birthday pictures that was well spent with Rafiq dear. <3 Remember when I said I love the oh-so-beautiful peace sea? Oh yes. I'll show you okeh? (=

And this, was my birthday cake. (=

Ohhh. I forgotten to blog about this. My cousin, or shall I say, my uncle (omg he is so young to be called uncle), got married err, last month eh? I think soo. Haha. I didn't bring my baby digicam along, soo, used kak sally's camera. But I havent asked the picture of the bride and groom yet. He looked so smart, and the girl is pretty. Lols. I remembered the times when we used to play football together at every wedding we had. We usually overnight, played football, jokes, laughter, wandering around that place (wherever that wedding was held). Those were our sweet times together. One is gone, so, to my uncle and the new auntie in the family, Akalil Bin Rahmat and Suliana Bte Sainal, Selamat Pengantin Baru! Or should I say Selamat Pengatin Lama ahh? Haha. Whatever laa. and uncle, You're a husband now, a big important role in life, big responsibilities to hold, I wish you all the best, and yes, I want many many adek sedara okeh! Hehehe. Now, When is Kak Sally's turn? Kak Norin, when is ur turn? Cepat cepat laa kahwin! =p

At the wedding

We're still going strong, and forever it will be. Together always. <3 you cousins!

2005-10-11T17:57:00.001+08:00

Heyloooo!! Okeh i'm back! I can't help blogging. Hahaha.

Computer Applications Practical Paper today was shitty. I forgotten how to change the numbers to formats. And i forgotten how to do query for the reports using the people's report. Ughh. So, that shows that i didn't do 2 questions. Theory paper is tomorrow, and, Malay on Thursday. There! End of Year Examinations ends! I want to shout out very loud because of all the papers. Yes of course I can do whatever I want after the exams, but to think back, nahhh. I'm worried for the results too. Hmm.

Ohhhh. I gave Famous Amos biscuits to Hidayah on her birthday. I feel like keeping it after all those wrapping up. The biscuits is in a heart-shaped container, tied with a gold ribbon at the side of it. Hidayah! I hope you like it okeh? (= I bought a protractor for Haikal on his birthday. Lols. Noo, actually he forgotten to bring protractor for Maths Paper, and so did I. So while on my way to the bookshop, I thought of getting him one. So there, I gave him a protractor on his birthday. The thought that counts, right?

Today is the 7th day of Ramadhan. Well, the 4th day of Ramadhan to me. BECAUSE, I couldn't fast for the first three days. Period laa. But that doesn't mean I eat the whole day okeh, I acted as if I was fasting. Respect the fasting people. (= Okeh, I need to go shopping. I want so many things laa! Mommy bought the ingredients for making the delicacies already. She's trying to make Cheese cookies. Yay! I wonder how it taste like. Heh.

I broke fast with my dearest Rafiq last Friday. Buka over his aunt's shop. Heh. So kecoh. And yes, since we miss each other so much, since we need our hugs and kisses, we had a great time together after buka. (= I love you sweetheart!

Last Saturday, cousins, aunties and uncles broke fast over at grandma's place. At night, the girls (okeh since I am excited to blog, I shall type names out), Kak Sally, Kak Norin, Kak Nora, Myself, Nadiah and Fifah went Parkway and Geylang. Courtesy to Kak Norin for driving. Tak payah susah susah nak naik bus. Hehe. Went to do some groceries shopping at Parkway Giant. It was more like err, amazing race? Each of us took one item. Just to save time. Haha. Went geylang after that. Omg. Its only the 4th day of Ramadhan, and Geylang is so pack with people. I so cannot tahan the heat, the noise. Ohh. We played a game while window shopping-ing. A game called, 'How many minahs can you spot in Geylang Bazaar?' Hahaha. Kak Sally kept on counting. It was uncountable. Reached home at about 11pm. Tired+hungry=eating so much once reached home. Haha. We were eating the leftovers. I wanted Longan dessert so much, but dah habis pulak. =( Ended up eating Macaroni Soup. Totally can't wait for this Saturday, going to break fast over at Kak Sally's place. Conferm kecoh lagi. Heh.

Okeh I better shut my brains off. Too much to blog and so little time. Its 6.14pm now. Must help grandma out. Happy buka-ing people! (=

2005-09-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

OUR SIMILARITIES.

[ Beat: Where have all the bootboys gone ]

We're only left with approximately 2 and a half week more before the end of year exam starts. I've totally got no more confidence in my Maths. But nevermind, I won't give up. I will just have to try harder. Tests here and there. Science, EOA, Maths. Oral will be on this Thursday. I've decided to photocopy last year's Secondary 3 end of year exam paper. If I can do that paper, Insyaallah, I too can do the end of year exam paper.

Went to dear's house after school today. Surprisingly, Aisha Alhadad was there. She's super kecoh laa! Haha. She even admire dear's and my schoolbag. She explains that our bag had a very nice combination because our bag colour was the same colour. Black and brown.

Aisha: Ehhh! I like the bag that both of you are using ahh!
Liyana: Huh? You like it?
Aisha: Yess! It's different bag but same colour. Nice combination. I like it ahh!
Aisha: Did you both plan it on purpose or what?
Liyana: Err. Nopey.
Aisha: *Giggling*

Aisha even took a picture of our bags. Haha. Oh well, it explains that dear and me have the same taste. We never plan on wearing the same things, but ended up, we do wear the same things. (=

Okehh laa. Got to zoom. Study study study! Good night darlings! (=

2005-09-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

MY BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL CIRCLE OF FRIENDS.

[ Beat: Cuppycake ]

So school resumed today. Boring! I know. Lessons per normal. Notes are to be copied for sure. And yes, my class had their N-League with 3C1 today. For the 1st half of the game, we really had no hope as 3C1 scored 4 while my class scored only 2. BUT! I love the 2nd half! Nyahaa. The boys scored as many as they could. It suddenly rained when they were in the middle of the game. We were left with only 12 minutes more.

However, the rain somehow stopped. Well not actually stopped, it was drizzling. But that doesn`t stop their semangat of playing. Was it 8-7 or 7-6 ahh? Haha. I didn`t follow. But what I know is, 3I1 WON! Wuhh! I was totally screaming like hell cheering for them just now. Rain or shine, I still supported them. Oh and did I mention I was with Sheila&Hudah too? Yes they were there too. We three hugged each other tightly after each goal is scored. Haha. Yes yes, crazy us.

As the game ended, the rain started raining heavily. I was shivering. My head suddenly went spinning all around. It was getting terribly terrible that I can`t even see things properly around me even though my contact lenses was on.

Sheila and Hudah was already worried. They massaged my head hard. Dear brought me out to the block opposite the school, as no one is allowed to be in school already. I felt super terrible that I almost fainted. The whole of Sec3 Na Malays, was like, [ eh eh eh eh! yana kau ok tak? eh kau ok tak? ] Hehehe. I almost lied down at the floor when dear supported my back, so I just squad down.

All of the malay boys insisted me to take the cab home. I disagree at first, but when they look at my condition, they really insisted dear to take me home taking cab. Each of them gave dear the money. I was touched. With umbrella in dear`s hand, he got ready to get out of the block when they suggested one of them should help us get the taxi first, then dear and me get out form the block. Akmal, with only a tied towel on his head, bravefully went out of the block, waiting for the taxi, he was freezing. But that doesn`t stop him from helping us to get a taxi.

All of them was really concern towards me. Yes, my condition was very bad. I`m touched. And I realised now, that I do have a wonderful and beautiful circle of friends. Thank you to all of you for helping me just now, your care and concern, have just touched my heart. Thank you friends. All of you, will always be remembered.

Thank you sweetheart. For carrying me here and there. For your info, he really did carried me okeh. In malay, they say dokong. Hehe. Dear, don`t be too worried okeh? You whispered in my ears just now and said, ' Sayang, I love you tau. Please don't be this way dear. I takut. Takmo tinggalkan I pls.' He was so worried, and he was scared looking at my condition.

Sweetheart, I love you too sayang. But if my time comes when I have to leave this world, I will dear. Anyday and anytime. Remember this dear, ajal maut di tangan Tuhan. Thank you for everything you have done just now dear. I love you so much. *big hug*

2005-09-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

TURNED A YEAR OLDER

[ Beat: Myself singing a birthday song ]

It`s my little cousin birthday today. So,
HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY NADIAH! (=
Yesterday was mum`s. So,
HAPPY 37TH BIRTHDAY IBU! (=
I hope you like our last minute surprise birthday party we organize yesterday. Hehehe! But it went smoothly right? (=

Okehh got to zoom. I`ll blog properly later at night.

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2005-09-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

UNBELIEVABLE

[ Beat: Ghost Town ]
[ Mood: Jumpy ]

I'm so stuck at home today. Having a little sister is a torture you know. Hmph. And sometimes you can't even go out just to take care of your small little sister. Double hmph. But nevermind. Because I love her, and because I am her sister, I will sacrifice my time for her. If only she's big enough to read this, I swear I will ask her to treat or buy me something. Triple hmph!

Being a good sister, I tortured her. I wrapped her body up, treating her as a one month year old baby, so she can't move her hands nor legs. I purposely place her toys beside her. She struggled. She tried to force her small little hands out. Unfortunately, she failed her mission because I pinned up a pin between the cloth that I wrapped her up. *evil laughs*

I left her all alone in the room, peeping her through the door. She was staring at her toys, trying to get her hands on them. I giggled. Hehehe! See. I told you I was a good sister. (=

Went to dear's aunt chalet yesterday. As usual, I was late. I promised him I would be at our usual meeting place by 12.30pm. But I turned up at 0115 hours. Yes, I was so PUNCTUAL. Extremely punctual.

Dear left me all alone to get to the chalet because he wanted to take the key for the Sec3 Na's room. Luckily Nazzeer was there to accompany me. Upon reaching there, my heart skipped a beat. Hellooo! I paiseh laa! Even though I dah biasa going to the family gathering occasion, and even though all of the family members knows me, I was still feeling so paiseh. With confidence, I went in. His families were there. The aunts and cousins from Kuala Lumpur were also there. I felt so relieved after that. Hehe.

Surprisingly, the chinese students chalet, or I shall say Sec3 Na's chalet was right infront of ours. Shafiq, Shaiful, Khalifee&Zarifah and many more turned up. Super kecoh I shall say. But I didn't go in their room as majority was chinese guys. Hafeez and the other malay guys went home to take their clothes as they are going to overnight.

I crapped with Kak Ain while waiting for dear to find his lost slipper. Oh yes, we both crapped with Nadia too. Shes super cute laa! I played choo choo train (whatever you call it) with her. Hahaha. Yes yes, childish me.

Overall, I had fun yesterday. Reached home about 0830 hours. Exhausted of course. Watched Incredible Tale last night. I was shocked when I realised that the first story they showed on Incredible Tale was at Marine Parade!! Seram tau! It's true that the clinic was already closed down. Previously, the clinic was called *Look Clinic*.

It was a dental clinic. Maybe the clinic closed down because of the seram-ness tak? EEEEEE!! I won't pass by that place ever again! Even though it is now replaced with an education centre. So parents, whoever send their children there, better changed them! Agaknya eh, mesti tempat education tukar tempat eh! Pasal diorang dah tahu the HISTORY behind it. EEEEEEEE!!!!!!

2005-09-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

Dearest boyfriend, thank you for taking good care of me just now. *mwahss!! and yes dear, you know I hate medicines, but still you forced me too. Hmphh! Thank you for feeding me the ouh-so-bitter panadol. I totally can`t get up when you woke me up at 7pm just now [even though I slept almost for 2 hours!], Hehehe!

He tucked me to bed, he put the blanket over me, setting the fans right, and makes sure I feel comfortable. He woke me up suddenly at 6pm, forcing me to eat that Panadol. Hmphs! I told him to crushed the panadol. Because I cannot swallow pills!!! Kwang kwang kwang! Why he does all this? Due to my heavy headache I was having suddenly.

Thank you so much sweetheart.

Baby I will never let you go. Your wonderful love, the sacrifices you made, makes my life so wonderful. You are my heart, my world, my everything. Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you.

*Hugggssss tigghhttttlllyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

2005-08-30T22:03:00.001+08:00

Opportunities

[ Beat: How do I Live Without You ]
[ Wanting: Cheesecake! ]
[ Mood: Tired ]

1 day to a new experience. I totally can`t wait for the announcement tomorrow. Wee! Teacher`s day tomorrow. There are only 5 or 6 items that will be presented. Dikir will be the most loudest, interesting, enjoyable show. Yeahh! I already memorise all the steps and the songs. Haahss!

I realised that my blog is kind of dead. Huahua! Lazy. Tired. That explains it all. Just finished ironing dear`s uniform for tomorrow. He`s super hot laaa in that outfit. Wuhh! Hottie babyyy! <3 <3

Currently watching Sembilu now. I feel like dozing off soon. My eyes really can`t stand it ahh. Hmm. Okeh ahh. Kita nak sleep ahhh. Siang kan kita tido. Okeh laaa. Selamat malam kawan kawan!

Oh yeshh! To my lil brother, Happy advanced 13th birthday bro! May all your wishes and drems come true okeh? Your present nanti nanti ahh okeh. See. I am a good sister. =)

And a very Happy Teacher`s Day to all the teacher`s! =)

2005-08-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

Fishy oh Fishy.

[ Beat: Your boyfriend sucks ]
[ Wanting: Rafiq! ]
[ Mood: Fucking tired ]

This post is actually to be typed on last Wednesday. Thanks to my lazy-ness. Okay so lets get back to last Wednesday.

Fishing is actually a fun activity to do. Except its tiring. Seriously. It depends on the weather. Went over to Bedok Jetty last Wednesday with dear. Met him up at Tampines to buy the umpan. Went all the way back to his house to take the fishing stuffs. As usual, bicycle was our vehicle. Heeh. Pity dear. He tumpang me. Caught like about ten or twelve fishes. Put four of the fishes aside as the fishes are not edible. Coincidencely, the four fishes are one family. Poor fishes. I concede that dear is a good fisher, but I think I can fish better. *grins*

As for today. Have to wake up early in the morning. Have to help out Masjid Siglap with the Nasi Briyani amal. Shocked, Khalifee and gang was there. Huahua. Helped out to pack the stuffs and all. Fun plus tiring. Rest in the car for awhile not even realising I was asleep. Dad woke me up and all I know I was at the carpark downstairs. Went up and I continued my beauty sleep again. Hrhrhr.

My blood phlegm seems to be not stopping. Forced by dear to go to the doctor tomorrow. Or else he won`t talk to me. Hmph.

~~Medicines?~~

EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWW!!

2005-08-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

[ Beat: Don`t Lie ]
[ Wanting: Fooodd! ]
[ Mood: Bloody Hungry! ]

Happy advance birthday Singapore!

The competition was kind of sucky I shall say. The class seriously won`t participate okehh. I was at my full of semangat when I realised that the chinese guys was so uncooperative. Half way, I decided not to do semangat-ly. Hurmphs. We won the consolation prize. I was all shaky when I took the present from Mr.Chua. My legs went all numb taking the stairs up to the stage. An experience for me. Haha. Okehh whatever laa.

Went jamming after school. Fun! The guys played really well. Dear`s voice was alright. Haha. I was like the spectator in there. Hafiz and Jazil are good at playing the guitar now. Improving day by day. Keep the faith both of you!( I know you are all blushed up now! hmph! ) Norriz, as usual, the professional of all. He`s totally good at playing the guitars. Any guitars. Name it. Taufiq`s improving on his drum. Yupp. Went to dear`s place after that.

Fed our little kids. Heehs! Wondering who? Errr. Should I tell you guys? Hmm. I guess so not. It`s for me to know, for you to find out. Right dear? =D Public holiday tomorrow. Yayy! School holiday on Wednesday. Made plans with dear already. Totally can`t wait for it! Weeeheee!

Hafiz, so sorry to hear about your separation with your wonderful and most precious one to you. I hope you learn your lesson dear friend. Insyaallah, your beloved one will return back. To the one who stole it away from Hafiz, kindly please return back as that is the most precious one to him. His beloved,

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iPod shuffle.

2005-08-04T12:43:00.000+08:00

Ice creaammm!!!

[ Beat on my ears: Hopelessly devoted to you ]
[ Wanting: Ice Cream! ]

Good afternoon Singapore! =)

Speech day was fine. The concert at night was alright. We didn`t get any food that they served. They only serve us Mee Goreng. But nevermind. Had a wonderful time with the girls yesterday. Yaty, Hanani, Hudah and Siti to be exact. We lepak till abt 9+. Singing competition was super great! The class really get well along. We sing the song out really loud! It was a last minute dance moves that we compose and it turns out great! I hope we get into the finals as Ms Lynda Toh will treat us Pizza Hut if we get into the finals and if we win, she said she would treat us something greater than Pizza Hut. Yippee!

For as today, it`s a celebration for all Ngee Ann Secondary students. Heehs! I don`t think I will be going to Jurong Swimming Complex with Seha and gang today. Sorry girls! I definitely won`t be going out today. Will be revising my EOA for the test tomorrow. Ahhh. Missing rafiq so much. I love you sweetheart.

I`m craving for ice cream laaa! Anybody willing to send me some or buy a tub for me? A small one will do. Pretty please?

....listen to my heart, can you hear it sing.....come what may....

2005-07-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

All Dried.

[Current beat on my ears: Seven Months]

I`m missing my baby rafiq. We`re missing each other. Sweetheart, I promise to give you one big hug with an upsize of big kisses wokay? I love you so much! *smooocchheess*

I skipped school. I wasn`t feeling too good. Two days mc. YAY! Hehehe. Okay so woke up in the morning just to go to my private doctor. Yes I love her. Know why? Because she gave me 2 days of MC. No PE for me tomorrow. YAY! But yeahs, I will have to come for my tarian. Blearghs. Oh well. Met Kak Norin up at town. Just walked around. Talked. My eyes are so in love with so many things. Omg. How I wish to just grab those things and pay them up. You all must be thinking why the hell i`m not doing that when actually that`s the basic way of how we grab things and pay things up. You know why? Because my wallet is kind of dry. Ok to be clear, I`m super broke! *shouting out loud* Any sponsors?!
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I would like to end my entry by typing this out.
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Girl, fuck off, fucker.

2005-07-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

[The beat on my ears: Anthem of our dying day]

Happy 17th birthday hanani! =) may all your dreams and wishes come true okay? *mwahs

Such a cold weather today. You know, this kind of weather should be replaced with the weekends. It will be a nicer way to have beauty sleeps. Hehe. I totally can`t believe that I slept during my Maths test just now. Omg! I was too sleepy as the weather was too good. Oh well, almost the whole class slept. Haha. So I think this explains it all, Ms Loh`s lesson is super boring. Anyways she have been giving us test since last Thursday. And yes, 3I1 hates test. Especially if there is too many test for every lesson. Hrhrhr. The class had so much fun during assembly period until our CME period. Cikgu Tahar, our CME teacher came in late due to he was confused what week is this week. Haha. The class childishness was super strong. Haha. Should have brought my camera just now. Well well, 3I1 rocks! =D

Discussed among ourselves during CME lesson. Well, Cikgu Tahar did come in, but he let us do our own stuffs. Fun! Jazil, Zaid, Ahmad and more, plus myself, discussed among ourselves. We decided to do a class picnic somewhere around August when suddenly I talked back about my trip to OCH [Old Changi Hospital]. So everybody talked back about their experience there. So all of us decided to go to OCH just now. For fun. Duh. Jazil, Zaid, Hafiz, Ahmad, Fahmi, Rafiq dear and myself went there for fun. As usual, we walked around. We did nothing much since the floor`s there was wet because of the rain as the rooftops ain`t strong. The funniest part was when they peeped through this door, when suddenly the guard dog`s appeared from where they peeped through. All of us ran with umbrella`s in our hand. Dear pulled me away as he was scared the dog bite me up. We planned if the dog bites one of us or even followed us or even trying to catch us up, we won`t run. But instead we will beat the dog with the umbrella`s that we got. Haha. Fahmi, Dear and myself went home first as we were kind of tired.

I skipped MLDDS today. Because I wasn`t feeling so good. But yeah, I was forced to go OCH with them. Hmmm.

My irritating blocked nose just won`t stop. My beauty sleep have always been disturbed by my coughs. Urgh. I wonder when it will stop. Hmphh. I got one important thing to shout out at.

I MISS YOU SWEETHEART! *MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS*

I`m missing him so much. =(. I love you rafiq. *hugs*

2005-07-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to:Toni Braxton-There`s no ME, Without YOU

Firstly, I wanna thank to loads of people. Thank you for remembering my birthday. To my wonderful classmates, my wonderful friends around, the wonderful gang of Leslie, Shaun, Bryan, and many more. Hidayah, Fahrini, Seha, Shasha, Hanani, Shidah, Ramizah, Fathin, Faseha, Atikah, and lots of more people, (sorry if your name are not mentioned and sorry to missed out your name). To the wonderful taggers at my tagboard, thank you, for the wonderful gifts, and the wonderful birthday wish. I am so proud, to have friends like you around. and a BIG thank you to my dear Rafiq. *mwahs

It was a great day. My name was being called everywhere I went. I totally felt so like a princess for that day and felt totally like a superstar. Hehehe. Had my tarian till about 6pm. After tarian, met dear in the canteen.

Off we both went to Pasir Ris to celebrate. We sat by the water breaker, seaside to be exact. The sea water was so wonderfully peaceful. With the wind blowing your hair off softly, and the calm water. It was just so peaceful as nobody was there. A birthday song for me for the opening ceremony of the cake. and presents for the closing ceremony. =) As usual, pictures were taken. I was super touched by the way he planned things up yesterday. He makes sure that this year will be the best birthday ever for me. Yes I was tired and exhausted after having tarian. However, because of his full energy and strength that he made yesterday, it really brightened up my day. I just don`t know how else I am supposed to explain everything that happened yesterday. It was really a wonderful day, and a very wonderful, best birthday ever in my 15yrs of living. Aww dear. I love you so much!

Once again, thank you everyone.

Rafiq sweetheart, Happy 14th month anniversary dear. [ 19.07.05 ]
Love you sooo much! *huggss and kissesss* =)

2005-07-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to: Ada apa denganmu-Peterpan

Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to taufiq,
happy birthday to you!

Happy 17th birthday taufiq! =)

~~Detention.~~ Urgh. Three days. Why? Because I did not turn up for school without having a mc. Irritating okay!

Luckily it`s only till Monday, if the detention falls till Tuesday, I will definitely skip. Why? Because it`s my special month for every year, and my special day for every month. To be clear, my birthday plus my 14th anniversary with Rafiq dear. 19 July. I totally can`t wait for it! Dear set up plans for the both of us on that day. According to him, it is a surprise for me. =D I am totally excited! However, it will only start after 5.30pm. Why? Because half of the Secondary threes will be having Wushu enrichment which ends at 3.10pm and straight to MLDDS on that pathetic day. I thought of skipping tarian, but nope I can`t. I will have to learn and teach the others on how to set up their hair for next Thursday`s programme due to Abg Zai, our choreographer, can`t make it next Thursday. Good, Because I can make up my own self, and I do not have to wear those ouh-so-thick make ups. Yay! Bad, Because we will have to set up our own hair, which, we will be using thousands of clips on our hair. hrhrhr.

My day was pretty fine. Excuse the detention part. My butt went all flat after serving two hours of detention. Humph! Went over to dear`s house after that. Ironed his school uniform. Chilled. Talked with his daddy about certain topics. Then I headed home! =)

Oh, yes. To the entire lovely, caring friends around me, thank you for being caring. And to Mr. Chris, thank you for the attention you gave. =)

Most, big, huge, enormous thank you to my beloved Rafiq, I am glad everything`s fine now. =) I love you. *smoooccchhhhhhhhhhhh**Biggg hugggg*

and btw readers, drop me a huge present next Tuesday okay? 19 July to be exact. *grins*

2005-07-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

[Currently grooving to: Wish resign-Circa Survive]

New song on my blog people! =)

So. School`s fun. Doing great. I definitely heart Maths! EOA practical is my all time favorite. Chilled at dear`s house. Played winning eleven with him. Too bad, I won! The score was 5-4. Hehehe! I was so proud of myself! =D Sweetheart if you are reading this. Aww! I am the champion! Hehehe. Oh well, you have always been winning wokay! My turn lah now. Alah, by one score only! We`ll have our competition again wokay? This time, I will score as much as I can, and your face will turn all red and your ears will be out full of smoke. =P hehehe. I love you rafiq! *mwahs mwahs mwahs*

I`m changing my attitude now. If I hate that person, I will tell him/her straight forward. Well, why keep your feelings? Hate them, tell them. I don`t care if you people would want to call me a bitch or something, I don`t care. This is my way of life. Because as I think back, if we hate that person, we tend to keep our feelings of hating that person to ourselves. The more we keep, the more we hate that person. As for me, keeping our feelings away of hating them will make you more mad, and getting heartbreaks. Yaps. In addition, if we hate that person, do not ever try to instigate him/her friends. you know, those [`eh aku benci deknie ah. Aku tak suke. Kau pun jgn kawan dier ahh.] Don`t try to like influence that another somebody to hate the person you are hating too. Well, that is my point of view.

I`m writing this, because I totally hate my class girls. Yes. My class girls. You people may see me somewhat close with them, but no. I`m not trying to say I`m perfect here. But, my class girls, are hypocrites. Seriously. I can get along with them sometimes. But only SOMETIMES. I kind of hate their hypocrites attitude. So now, i`ll talk if I want to, i`ll shut up, if I want to. It depends on my mood. Its not that i`m having crisis with them, but i`m stating the fact of them here. Hurhurhur.

For example,

A and B are good friends. A and B came to C and talks about D. Suddenly, A and B came to D and talks about C. Their behaviour are somehow like that. Now, answer me, are A and B so wonderfully perfect?

2005-07-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to: Brown Eyes-Destiny`s Child

I know that he loves me cause its obvious. I know that he loves me cause his feelings show.

and he`s missing me, when he`s not kissing me.

Life`s good, life`s beautiful, because you made rainbows in my life darling!

i love you rafiq! *smoooccchhhh*

2005-06-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to: Give them hell, kid-My Chemical Romance

Harlieuu! How were your timetable people? Mine`s boring! Timetable changed, teachers changed. The new teachers whose teaching our class maybe will get migraine very soon. They are trying their best to make the lessons fun, but nahh. They still haven`t won our hearts yet. But we love Ms Nurshireen! She rocks like hell! EOA subject, is now, fun+interesting. Plus, we understand more. Unlike our previous teacher, Ms Ong. We don`t even understand what she is trying to say or teach. Hrhrhr. Oh yes, I think I love copying notes now. I do my notes with coloured pens, fanciful handwriting.

Tomorrow will be watching my Paul Scholes junior, which also known as, my dearie Rafiq, match.Yup2! My big star player!

2005-06-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Papa,
Happy birthday to you!

Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dan dimurahkan rezeki. You`re the greatest dad ever! Love you dad!

2005-06-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

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2005-06-22T05:09:00.000+08:00

Met my dear rafiq just now! Weee! Sooo missing him so much! Just slacked at his house. Cooked for him. Watched Hindustan. At abt 7.45pm, headed home!

Its 5am in the morning now, and only Jazil and Hafiz are still online.

I am so chatting super duper crap with these two crazy people. Hafiz and Jazil. Kwang kwang kwang. We bitch, we criticize. Ouh yes people, we are the evil! So, beware of us! The two guys complained that they hate their hair. Sshhh! I`m telling you their secret. Hehehe. They cutted their hair over at roxy square at katong just now. According to them, their hair still looks hot. Hhmm. Okay2, whatever it is, they still look hot as ever.

I was forced by this two monkeys to update my blog, and to write about them. Sms-ing my dear rafiq now. Ggrrr. Missing him! Even though we met just now. Hehehs! You made my day today sweetheart! *smooches*

Wokay lahh. Got no more to say!

Oh n btw, I HATE HIDUNG TAIK!
To jazil and hafiz, you know, I know, kn kn kn? *winkkss*

*; If love was a law,
I would be in prison,
for the rest of my life_

*bigggg huggg*

2005-06-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

It`s been like a million years since I last update this crap of mine. Mwahaha! So what`s up? Hehehs.

Went to Johor early in the morning just now. With the whole family. Mum and Dad took leave to bring us around. Went to have our lunch at Jalan Kayu just now. Straight went to Wild-Wild wet after eating. Yeahs! Had loads of fun in the water and yes, all the rides. I brought Liya into the water. Kwang kwang kwang. Wore her a sweet, cutie small life jacket. Everybody in the pool, or to be clear, [Shiok River] kept on looking at her. She was one in a million. Hehehs. One round of the shiok river, and went I got off from the water, she was SLEEPING! Omg omg! Like hello?! Babies should be so scared of water, maybe feeling uncomfortable, crying for sure, but hell no! Liya was not even scared, or even crying! But instead, she was SLEEPING!! I was like laughing all the way!

Hahahas. Took twice of the Ular-lah ride. Chihuahua! Hehehs. Oklahs, i`m fucking tired, after one whole day out!

Sweetheart I miss you!
*mwahss

2005-06-19T03:50:00.000+08:00

Rafiq sweetheart,

Baby you were always there, always puts an listening ear, always there when I needed you, which never gives up listening to my problems, and, the most sweetest thing, you will always comfort me, no matter what risks you have to take.

I can still remember our memories. You will always tell your problems to me, and I will try to solve it out. But the greatest memory was at the esplanade . =) . I can never forget that day and date. You were extremely shy to confess your love, but u did confess it before I came down from the bus. It was friends at first, sis n bro later and we are together next .

You healed my big pains, u light my life up & u made me believe in love once again. 19 May, was the day. Our day. It started from that day, when I found, the deepest love I knew.

You loved me in a very wonderful way, which I just can`t explain. Your wonderful love, your care n concern, your jokes, your smile, your laughter, makes my heart go crazy. You are my everything. I can`t even imagine life without u here by my side. Without you, life would never be the same, and without u, there will be no me. My love for u gets more and more, each and everyday, and it can never fade away.

I just love your gentle smile, your tender touch, the way you laugh n tease, and I always love the way you find the nicest way to please, or even the nicest way to say sorry. I just love the way you cheer me up when u find me in a frown, and you will always raise my spirits up when life totally have got me down.

From the bottom of my heart, I just totally love u a lot for your patience and your truly sincerity, I totally love the way u love me. But most of all, I just love the way you are!

Happy 1 year and 1 month anniversary darling.

*big hugs&kisses*

2005-06-16T01:36:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to: Stand up–A Static Lullaby

As I was sitting down, doing nothing. My mind suddenly stroked with one of Shaiful`s ouh-so-lame conversation. Shaiful, Nazzeer, Dear and myself was walking to the bus stop from dear`s grandmother house when Shaiful came up with a topic.

Shaiful: Fiq, kau imagine eh, aku, kau, yana dgn nazzeer, jadi adik-beradik.

Rafiq, Liyana, Nazzeer: Laughing like hell.

Shaiful: Imagine eh, kita ada problem je, kita lari rumah. Kita empat2 lari rumah. Mesti gerek eh.

Rafiq: Taknak ah. Aku taknak jadi adik-beradik dgn yana, nanti aku tak boleh kahwin dgn dia. Aku nak kahwin dgn dia.

Liyana: Smiling shy-ly.

Nazzeer: a`ah eh. Best eh kalau kita jadi adik-beradik. Mesti kita sehidup semati punyer.

Shaiful: a`ah! *agree-ing dgn penuh semangat*

Rafiq&Liyana: Smiled at each other, and continued walking.

Shaiful&Nazzeer: Left behind, continuing their topic about us being siblings.

Hehehe. I find this very funny. Because it`s like all of a sudden, Shaiful came up with that topic. Shaiful and Nazzeer will always be with rafiq&me together after school. Teasing, joking, doing silly stuffs, together. Yes, we are so close. We`re like siblings. I love them a lot. However, of course, I love my rafiq even more! =))

-You are the air I am breathing,
The light in my darkness,
And the reason I am living.

I love you Rafiq. *smooch

2005-06-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

[Currently grooving to: The boys summer-The Ataris]

I still haven`t started on my assignment. Which I will have to pass it up on the first day of school. I`m still searching for a thing, and to search for who invented that thing, and what are their users. Hrhrhr. Somebody help me. Give me some ideas okay? Hehe. I wonder who still haven`t started their assignment. Probably Taufiq, Jazil. I hope so. My biggest suspect is Taufiq.

Staying home today. Taking care of Liya. I love her to bits! She`s so active today. Whatever faces I did to her, she giggles like hell! She can`t stop laughing that she finally went to sleep.

Such a cold morning just now. I was awaken by the cold-ness. Thinking back, school`s re-opening is just a week away. Humph! I so don`t feel the ever so precious one-month holiday.

School? Sigh.
- Wake up at 5.15am
- Bathe till 5.30am
- Have my breakfast (if I have the appetite to eat)
- Out at 6am.
- Walk to the ever-so-far bus stop till 6.15am (if I have the mood to walk as fast as I could to catch the bus up at 6.20am)
- Meet sweetheart in the bus/at his bus stop.
- 6.50am/7.00am. Reach school.

Oh n yes! Suddenly I miss all my classmate. I miss all the noises we make. Irritate our teachers. Will get my two days detention when school re-opens. Confirm! You know why? Because I skipped two days of school without having an mc.

2005-06-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

Open up your speakers people! Listen to the song.

This song is dedicated for me, me and only me, from my one and only sweetheart, Rafiq. I was in his room, slacking. When he suddenly came in and told me to get in his arms. Hugging each other tightly, he played this song on his radio. He asked me to listen to it, with full attention.

[`I will love you, until my dying day. I love you, until the end of time]

He kept on singing that phrase, loudly, proudly, with full semangat-ly, to me.

Yes sweetheart, I love you too. You know I love you so. We will build our sandcastle up high, until it reaches the sky up above. *mwahhsss

2005-06-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

New layout. Special thanks to Sharifah for doing the template for me. Hehh!

Okay, i`m done.

Night sweeties.

Oh n yesh, i miss you rafiq! I can`t wait to meet you tomorrow. I `m sure you are too.
I promise to give you a huge, enormous&gigantic hug okay? =)

Love you sweetheart! *mwahs

2005-06-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

I really can`t sleep. I`m so chatting crap with Hafiz. We`re discussing about our future band. Our Bloody Romance or Our Harlequin Romance. Nice name? That`s our future group name.

Vocalist- Liyana
Guitarist 1- Jazil
Guitarist 2- Hafiz
Drummer- Rafiq

Hahaha. See. We got big dreams.

I`m basically editing my pictures which I just got back now. My pictures were gone when I accidentally dragged it into one of the boxes. Hurhurhur. Okay I have nothing more to write. Sooo. Goodbye.

Rafiq Sweetheart, I`m so missing you darling.
*smooochh*

2005-06-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

I think I wanna do the CIP thingy again. It seems fun. A great experience for me. =)
The worst part is, I didn`t bring my digital camera with me along. Humph. It`s tiring. Because I did go here and there. It was with Jazil and Zaid at first, then with dearie later. Hehehe. Did collect a big amount I guess. I`m satisfied. =) yes I went to loads of places. But! Had so much fun!

Wee. Okay I`m sleepy. Tired. Weak.

Sleep tight darlings.

Sweetheart, I am so sick.
I am so love sick, with you.
*smooocchhhhh*

I`ve got an attitude, so what?

2005-05-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

MadaGascar is hilarious! You people should go and watch it. Seriously. Watched it with my bro and dad just now. Last minute plan. Haha.

I seriously have not much plan for these holidays. Any plans people? Call me up! =)
Maybe going fishing tomorrow. With my dearest Rafiq and Mr-ouh-so-talkative-irritating Shaiful. Hurhurhur.

Chatting with Mr.Hafiz right now. Again. Hahaha.

Okay i`m off.

Miss, if you have a problem with my attitude, well, think again. You made me do my worst attitude to you. You can never be trusted no more. When you said sorry to me that day, did you realised that i didn`t reply your message back? You know why? Because you still have the guts to laugh. Do you want me to recall? Okay. Here it is.

[That lady: i`m sorryy yanaa!! ahahaha. i mean about the rumours thingy.]

You see. I may have forgiven you about that thing. But!! To think about it, nahh. Because you really made me lose trust on you. Now, put yourself in my position, won`t you feel the same too? I asked comments from people about this situation, and yes they said, they won`t be trusting people like this no more if it were to happen to them. See. Atleast they understood my feelings. Do you? Maybe its nothing to you, but its something to me. I can never trust you no more, `Friend` ?

2005-05-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

Now, I can sleep peacefully. Sleep, and wake up at whatever time I want. Yes. I think you`re thinking what i`m thinking. It`s the last day of school! BUT! I will have to go back to school for certain activities and my CCA. Haizz.

School was certainly fun just now. Had loads of fun with my classmates. Assignments, as usual. I didn`t take the worksheet for Maths homework. Due to I skipped school yesterday. So yes, I only have my English to do. The English homework is 30% of my SA2. Yes I have to do it properly. Or else I`ll get zero for the assignment.

On Wednesday, we will be having this Kidney Dialysis Foundation. You know the going around collecting money with the tin? Then you will get the stickers? Hehe. Yes. We will have to do that. And it`s over at town! Hehe.

So now. Liyana tengah boring. N I`m watching this lame CD. It belongs to my little cousin. Lat, the kampong boy. Haha. But it`s funny. Hehehe. Oklah. I`m so sleepy already.

Sugar Dreams. _

You know I love you so.
I heart you, rafiq.
*smmooocchhhh*

2005-05-26T09:09:00.000+08:00

Its 9.06am now. So everybody is studying right now. While I am here, who just woke up fm my beauty sleep. Hehe. Yes I skipped school. I am so fucking tired. My irritating flu&cough, makes me go crazy. I was awakened by my grandmother at 8am, she told me to bath liya. Since she too was having a bad flu, she could not get near liya. My flu is not that worst. Luckily.

Meeting dear in the afternoon later. After school is dismissed. Hash! Then I can disturb him. Weehee~! Oh well. I wanna go and take my bath. Then I wanna go grab food. Then maybe, I would sleep back. =)

2005-05-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

Remember my previous entry? The one I wrote abt this.

[ To that somebody, im sorry.Maybe im not talking to you again. Ever again. Rafiq and myself do not know who and how this situation came up with. Im not trying to accuse you or something, but in my mind, thousands of questions are running around. Could it be you, who came up stories?, whom you yourself like him? etc etc. I think I have lose trust on you dear friend. And maybe, I learn a lot from this phrase, [Kawan makan Kawan].And yes, I have learnt a lot. To choose my friends wisely. ]

Remember? To that somebody, I think you should know who you are right? For this time being, yes I am mad at you. Very mad at you. I am so pissed off at you ladee. I am very pissed off. Your pathetic behaviour, I really cant stand it. I dont know why. But I HATE you ladee.

2005-05-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

The sec three normal academic lost to sec three express class. By one goal. The score overall was 7-6. And yes of course, as usual, I am proud of my hubby. He scored 5 goals. Hell yes, I am so proud of him! *mwahs

Everyone played so wonderfully. Congratulations guys! =)

I was tired, so I decided to get home. Then, he went off to his grandmother[s] place.

Rafiq sweetheart, you are my everything.
I just love you loads! *hugs

2005-05-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Currently talking to Mr. Hafiz now. I think I feel much better after letting out all the stuffs to him. Luckily he knows what is going on. And yes, he understands the situation. He advised me, loads of stuffs. Agreed to some stuffs I talked about. And he added some stuff I did not know about certain things and people. Thank you for cheering me up Hafiz.

So now, I know the meaning of friend. A true friend. Who will always be there when you need them. A true friend, who always lends a listening ear. A true friend, who will always be there in worst or good times.

And yes hafiz, I will always be there when you need me too. You know I have always been there! Will always be there, till your problems are solved okay? =)

So long and goodnight.

2005-05-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

So there has been a rumours that my dear rafiq likes farlinah. Shocking, right? I wasnt mad at him when he told me about everything, because I know, it was really not true. When we first got into our real relationship, we had a promise. And yes, that promise is still alive, freshly, in each of our heart.

Stupidly, some fucking people smsed me saying that my rafiq likes farlinah. I wasnt bothered. He was fucking mad when he heard about the rumours going on. Yes, totally mad. He was really worried that I would end our relationship because of this. So he proved me, in a very sweet way, just to prove to me that I was the only one in his precious heart. I love you sweetheart!

He decided not to ever message her, ever again. And to people who is taking him for granted, two words for you, FUCK YOU! He is trying to change his life. And yes, he have changed. He is sure being friendly to everybody. He is sure to care for his friends. Yes he cares a lot about his friends. So msging each other, asking about what are you doing and exchanging about life stories isnt something very special okay. I know my rafiq. And yes, my new rafiq.

To that somebody, im sorry.
Maybe im not talking to you again. Ever again. Rafiq and myself do not know who and how this situation came up with. Im not trying to accuse you or something, but in my mind, thousands of questions are running around. Could it be you, who came up stories?, whom you yourself like him? etc etc. I think I have lose trust on you dear friend. And maybe, I learn a lot from this phrase, [Kawan makan Kawan].

And yes, I have learnt a lot. To choose my friends wisely.

You make me feel like a queen, whenever I am with you.
You make me melt with your wonderful words.
I Love you Rafiq, so much. *hugs tightly* =)

2005-05-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

The wonderful love, care and concern, the attention you gave, made my life shine brightly like the sun up above. You sacrificed alot for me, brightened my life up in many ways, just to see and make me smile and laugh, each and everyday. Your true love, can never end for me, for even how much i broke your heart. You were always there, to listen to my problems, giving me great advises, accompany me through the night with either calls, sms, and yes, each of our outing. In my heart, is where you will always be. Kept with full of warmth and love.

Happy one year anniversary darling.
*hugs&kisses*

2005-05-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

My computer applications were fucking complicated. Urgh. So irritating. Humph! Science paper will be tomorrow. And yes currently revising last year[s] mid year paper. Did my revisions after school just now. Then off went to dear[s] house. Slack, then off I went home. Entertaining my baby sister, Liya, now. She[s] been talking and talking non stop. She kept on farting. Haha. Good for her. So her stomach tk kembung. Hehe. She only talk, laugh and kept on farting. After farting, she laughs. Hehe. Adorable her! =)

Okay good night people.

Sweetheart, you make my heart melt each time I am with you.
My love for you runs deeper than the ocean and the sea.
I love you, so much. *smoochh

2005-05-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

EOA test is just tomorrow. Okay people. Wish me luck.

So long and good night.

To the love of my life, Rafiq,
You make me feel so special.
I love you so much, sweetheart.
*mwahh

2005-05-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

this is the picture at cik Zaidah[s] wedding. hehe!

and lastly, this my my beloved, sweety baby. Lesta Liya.

2005-05-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hello darlings. Oh well. Im making this entry a fast one. Maybe. Oh well. Currently doing my EOA [Elements of Office Administration] notes. Yaps. Will do my maths notes after that. And soon, my computer applications notes. That[s] the ouh-so stress subject. Hmphh.

Went out with mummy & grandparents just now. Went over to raffles hospital to have our stomach fill up. Then went shopping at bugis. But I didn[t] grab anything though, I wasn[t] in the mood because there are so loads of people, and so many minahs there. Making their stupid stuck-ups face. Haha. As usual lah. Minahs what. They have to be fierce. Hurhur. Whatever! Then off we went home.

As you can see, I changed my layout. Yaps! Thanks to mamafai. I did and edited all the pictures. im satisfied. Nyehex! Tmr will be having mother[s] day gathering over at kak norin[s] house. I cant wait! missing all my cousins!

N to kak salina a.k.a Sally, will upload the pictures soon. Sorry cuz! =D

My English paper on last Friday was okay, my letter writing sucks. its so god damn hard. Its not the normal letter writing, but its a report. A report on a particular robbery. Composition, on a robbery too. My mind went all BLANK on the composition. I didnt know what to write because I already gave all my ideas up on my letter writing. Sigh. but luckily I managed to think up of something. I hope the story is fine. Haha.

Okay I got to go now. Continue-ing on my notes. I hate memorising! Urgh!

Happy Mother[s] Day.

My life is more beautiful and exciting, than is used to be.
I love you, dear rafiq.

2005-05-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

Will be going to Bedok later. Yaps. My cousin is getting engaged. Good for him. He[s] a hottie you know. Hehe! Oh well, I did my studying yesterday. Yaps. Revised back on my Maths and Computer Applications. Stressed out! Will be doing my science and English on Tuesday. Read more books.

After doing all my studying yesterday, went over to dear[s] house together with Shaiful. His parents were at home. Played playstation2. Hehe! Challenged winning eleven with dear. Nyahhaa! Football, like duh! He won. But my skills were okay, that[s] according to Nazzeer. =D. His mum went to work, leaving his dad, Shaiful, Nazzeer, himself & I. We were dead hungry. So dear and me went to buy the foods riding his daddy[s] bicycle. Yes I ride with him. =D. After eating then I went home.

Mystery happened when I was on the lift. Something. I don[t] want to talk about it. Its between my grandparents, Kak Norin and I. Creepy! Shish! Went to parkway after that because grandparents wanted to eat. I didn[t] eat anything because I was still full.

Im so getting fed up with the way I am living with my family now. I hate them. To bits! Whats wrong if I don[t] want to go home back at my Sengkang house and instead I want to be with my grandparents? Is not wrong right? I just simple don[t] understand my father. And I know my stepmother is reading this. You want to tell dad? Fine! Go ahead. But think first, this is me, between me and my life. My personal things. Between me and my father. But whatever! This is me, and my future.

Missing my baby RaFiQ a lot!
*mwahh

Happy holidays everyone! =)

2005-04-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

To all my beloved taggers :

Raodah- hee! Thank you! =)

Farlinah- thankiew dear.

WaWa- sure thing! Will link u up aytes!

Ifahhh*- thank you dear.

Fahrini- yesh I love it too! =)

Cuz Sally- the album on the wedding is coming up soon! =)

Shikin- harliieeuuu cousin!! Yeahh. Long time no see you. Mishh you!

Mrs dom- heeh! Sorry dear. I was already late. So didnt get to go street soccer. ;)

Nani- nanti yana tag you okay. ;)

Nad- hello lil cousin! Mish you too. Are you coming home today?

It has been a long time since I rode daddy[s] motorbike. Daddy sent me back to marine parade with his motorbike. Ahh. Windy. Heeh!

Basically I did nothing today. Just did my housework and entertaining my little cutie sister, Liya. Yaps. Shes a cutie larh. Heeh!

Visited my uncle yesterday. Guess what? He fell from his motorbike yesterday morning on the way to work. Luckily there[s] this kind MAT helped him. Thank you for saving my uncle whoever you are. God bless. His motorcycle was out of control. He was speeding nearly to a 90km I think, when his bike started vibrating, the front one, I don[t] know what they call it. Then he fell. The accident happened at the tunnel passing out town down there. He was at the centre lane. Thank god there were no cars or whatever. But most of all, the whole family just could not thank enough at that MAT.

His given a one week off from work. Take care uncle.

I am so missing my baby Rafiq. *hugs&kisses*

2005-04-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

Straight went to dear[s] grandmother[s] house after school just now. The guys skipped their Friday prayers because of certain reasons. Kids are just so adorable. I so love Nadia. She kept on kissing me while I was watching television just now. I was laying myself on the pillow when suddenly she came running to me and kissed me all around my face. How cute she was.

I had a good afternoon nap there. Dear slept first, then it was Shaiful[s] turn. Then suddenly it was my turn. Hehe. My so called comfortable and good afternoon nap was awaken by touches and kisses. How nice it was to see my dear[s] face when I was awake. I am so in love. I was still as sleepy as ever though. So he tried to carry me up and make me stand. Hehe. But I forced myself to stand. I love you rafiq. *mwahh

I went home while dear and shaiful went to meet the others at cage. Yaps. And so I continued my sleep at home. Nyahhaa!

Ok darlings. Im done for today.

I heart you rafiq dear! *hugggsss tightly*

Oh and before I forget, happy 3rd month anniversary to Jazil&Farah . =)

2005-04-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hello darlings. Im tired. Sigh. Hehe.i wanna be a guitarist. A punkrock guitarist. Followed the guys to jamming just now. Songs was great. I mean, not that great. But still, I wanna be a punkrock guitarist! I wanna take guitar lessons. Shheessshh!

Excursion to the Police Heritage yesterday was boring. Totally boring. Just walked around. No taking of pictures. Hmm.

To my dear friend Jazil,

Relax okay? Rafiq and I will always be there when u need us. You know we are always there. You know we will try our best to help you. You know we will try to give advises. Whatever it is, we will always be there when you need us okay?

=)

n to my dear rafiq,
you know I love you right?
*hugs tightly*

2005-04-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since I last updated this bloggy. Nyaahaa!

School has been so fun and tiring. We had our spot-checks just now. Yaps. Socks and everything. Went sports hall after school activities just now. Then off dear and me went to his grandmother[s] crib. I slept just now while waiting for Ain to come back home as grandmother wanted to go to Tampines Mart to feed our stomachs. Was so sleepy. Hehe!

After eating, went straight home. Had talks with my dear. Yaps. =) . I just heart him so much!

Ouh well, currently chatting with hafiz right now. We are so talking craps. Hafiisshh! nyahhaa!

I will be away till Sunday. Will be at jurong. My aunty is getting married. Im so excited! Cousins gathering again! Ahh! Love it! Rewanngg! Wee~!

My classmates are all so sweet. All of them was so worried because i was crying just now because of something. hee! Sucha sweet&caring classmates.

Okay im done.
Im so missing my baby Rafiq.
I love you.

Toodles people! Do keep tagging aights!
*mwahhhh

2005-04-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

school was okay . tiring especially CPA lessons . yupx .

chilled around after school with my dearest . then off we went to banquet to have lunch wif his parents , ain & nazzeer . went to banquet at eastpoint . totally full . heeh! ain[s] treat . thank you ain! *mwahh* . then just walked around eastpoint .

weehee! i love today!
i heart you rafiq! *hugss*

2005-04-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

harlieeuu people! hee . okay . ive just uploaded the SYF competition pics & the lunch we had at hyatt hotel on saturday wif my families . yup . celebrated my grandma advance birthday there . yupx . enjoy the pictures! okay i wanna go iron my clothes n stuffs .

toodles!

rafiq baby , i mish you! *mwah

2005-04-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

SYF was a blastt! Wuhhoo! Had a greatt time dancing! Wee~ I feel so proud after dancing . haha . smiling was the aim . but it was hard for me to smile for the 5 mins and 31 seconds song . so my smile went widely , wide , and there came my fake smile . haha . im tired now . totally tired . took loaddss of pictures . Will be uploading it soon in an album . the match between 3C1 against 3C2 was great! I know dear gave up through halfway . Cause he had no confidence at all. The score was 3-2 for the first half . 3C1 was leading . I can see that dear was already mad .

But it didnt pulled him down . Bryan gave 2 shots for the second half . Which brings dear his confidence back . Proud of him . =) . The score was 6-5 . 3c2 won! Wuhhoo! Congrats 3C2! Farlinah n me was like against Hidayah . nyahaha! Hidayah , u know it[s] a joke right? Hee! Had totally fun with them during the soccer match . Love u gurls!

Results for the Singapore Youth Festival will be out tomorrow . im scared! Hoping it will be a gold even though the school aimed silver for MLDDS . But we will prove to the school that we the MLDDS can make it and we will always exists! Ok lame .

I love you Rafiq! *hugs*

2005-04-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

SYF is tomorrow . yesh tmr . im so nervous . grr . hoping to get a gold . yeahh . costumes , hairs , umbrellas are all readyy . niceeyy! hee! okay den , toodles!

rafiq , you know i love you . *mwah*

2005-03-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to Cik Yus ,
Happy Birthday to you!

Semoga dipanjangkn umur dan dimurahkn rezeki . *amin*

Woo! Celebrated cik yus birthday at yassalam . damm . im sooo full now . haha . nicey food!

I am a princess for today n yesterday . I didnt know that I have such caring friends . ouh I love them . =) . firstly , I wanna thank Hudah , for carrying my bag here and there . Sheila , for tie-ing up my hair all over n over again . Zarifah , for writing up my notes and all the worksheets . Jazil , Zaid , and all my other classmates for your care and concern . im so proud that I have such friends who are so caring . I love you guys! =) .

And a big thank you to my darling Rafiq ! for massaging my hand and carrying my bag all the way & tying up my hair this morning even though its a bit in a mess . hee! I heart you darling ! *mwahh*

Ouh well . u must be wondering what happened to me . my right hand elbow is hurt . because of some stupid MAT under the block playing the stupid football . n it was a strong kick okay . at first it was ok , but a while later , goshh . the pain!! Ouhhhhhh! i didnt get to play P.E just now . Ms Teo caught my hand as I was playing this Freeze B . she told me to get home and go to the hospital and have a check up on my hand , I only replied [yes ms teo] . haha . ouh I dun wanna go to the hospital , they will like do such things which will feel so painful . ouhh . dear[s] massage was already so painful , imagine the hospital[s] , shheeshhh! Hee! My hand[s] abit ok now . I can bend a little . yup . okaylah , wanna go watch The O.C.

Toodles!

I heart you friends ..

N I heart you more sayang . *hugs*

2005-03-29T22:29:00.002+08:00

Im dead tired . watching Konsert Solo over at suria now . hee! Got my face you

noee! Hehe . did all of u watch the konsert solo tk ?!! teehee! Wokay2 .

I went home wif jazil just now . as I wanted to go home n get changed for tarian , n

he wanted to take his darling farah , so he accompanied me home . aww . atleast I

had a friend on my way back home just now . haha! I was late for tarian just now .

cos of de stupid bus 28 I waited for . hurhur . idiot siak . luckily abg zai wasnt mad

or wadeva . didnt get to watch dear[s] soccer match just now cos the time clashes

wif my tarian . his class won! N im totally proud of him cos he scored 4 goals just

now . ouh n yesh , one mistake he did , he did an on-goal . the ball was on the line

of the opponent[s] goalpost , he wanted to get the ball out , but the ball

accidentally went in the goal . n yes . it was counted . haha . silly him! but still , 4

goalss! Congrats darling! I noe u can do better . *mwahh

So he scored 13 goals in total of 3 or 4 match . =) . k im gonna watch this [entity] . a

so called ghost story which hafiz borrowed ard . dear asked me to burn for him , n

also asked me to see it . I was crying yest when he told me bout it . haha .

K toodles!

Rafiq darling , I heart you .
*huggsss&kisses* =)

2005-03-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

Wee~!! My class won !! 9-3 . wuhhooo! So proud of them! Yea yea~! Hee . I went

for my tarian abit late just now . yupp . me&sheiLa . cos we so called support for

atleast a little while . yeshh . only the two of us from our class . so sad . but nvm .

atleast we won!

Weehee! Congrats pple! Heee!

Tarian is getting more strict . I mean not strict lah , is just that its tiring . yeshh . I

always have leg cramps at home . hmpphh . SYF is getting nearer . wuhh . nervous

nervous!

Gosshh . tmr[s] practice will be like 3pm to 6pm . sighh . n I cant watch darling[s]

soccer match tmr . im sorry dear! All the best ayte! Just imagine that im dere .

*mwahh* .

im soo fucking proud of him . yeshh . proud . hee! He[s] the top scorer among all

the secondary 3 classes . yupp . he scored 6 goals for the first match . weehee ~ .

congrats syg . I noe u can do better tomorrow with or without me . I have the faith

in you! Hee*!

Ouh well . im tired . n im hungry . I wanna go grab something .

Toodles!

`*you are my only one ___

I love you rafiq! *huggs*

2005-03-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

Rafiq dear ,

You know how much I love you , you know how important you are to me .

N you know I treasure you a lot . You are a precious diamond which I do not

Want to lose . A poem made specially from me to you . =)

*// - You are the only one in this world that

could bring a smile to my face .

*// - Never did I believe that we would be here

together , and so deeply in love .

*// - You are my heart , my world , my everything .

I do not know what I would do without you .

*// - I want to say thank you for coming into

my life and showing me true love .

*// - Thank you for showing me that there is

such a thing as happiness . N that happiness is being with you .
=)

-Copyright of Nur Liyana .

Happy 10th month anniversary darling . I Love you .

you are my reason to be .

*huggss&kisses*

2005-03-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

Rafiq dear ,

Happy 10th month anniversary . I Love You so much . =)

*mwahh**huggss*

2005-03-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

Urgghhhhh . I simply cant stand her anymore! Im trying hard not to hate her .

but she just simply make me too! Her reactions , urghh! Im sooo pissed off wokayy!

I cannot stand her lahhh!! Shes tooooo over okay . my hands are soooo light

already . I can just simply go on to her , n just give her a very tight slap . get out of

my life you asshole! Erghh . pls lahh . im crying now . only god knows how I feel .

sigh . shes just making my life go crazy . help . =(

2005-03-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

As you can see , i changed the layout again . heheh . Im so dead bored okay . so atleast i have some work to do , dat is changing my layout . yeahh . eating my cookies again . huahuahua . went geylang jex now wif grandparents and cuzzins . yupp . repaired my ouh-so very preciouusssss spectacles . my very precious frameless spectacles which I accidentally step on it on kak sally[s] dance competition at sembawang sec school as I was busy grooving to the beat . how shocked I was . it was broken into two . ouh goshh . but nahh . its gonna be repaired . one week . wee~ I can have my specs back . my degree is getting higher n higher . aiyoooo . im starting to must wear specs or contact lenses everywhere . hee! Yes . I am that blind . sooo blind already .

Had a nice talk wif my darling sharifah aka ifahhh yesterday . rite gurl ? hee! N we shared loads of thingss . ahhh . I feel so great aft talking to her yest . yup2 . wee~ I love her a lot! I love youu! Hehe! We criticize , discuss n bla bla bla . huahuahua . loads of things . weehee~

Having my tarian tomorrow & Friday . SYF [Singapore Youth Festival ] is on the 6th of April 2005 . wuhh . nervous babe! Well , honestly , I dont really like the song we are dancing . its so not in rhythm . Im not sure if dats the final making of the song . I hope is not . our costumes are sooo grand . hee ! im loving it~ n abg zai changed loads of steps . wuhh .

Wokie larhhs . im done!
Toodles!!

I mishh my rafiq!! =( .
*mwahh**hugss*

2005-03-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

Silent hurt .

2005-03-15T16:11:00.000+08:00

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2005-03-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

I dunch noe y im feeling like this . ouh gosshh . liyana , y so emoo ? grr . I hate it when I start tinking of de verryyy baddd side . k wadevaa . whu cares anyway . hmm . I dunnoe if I shud let it out or I shud just keep it to myself . hhmms . maybe I shall just keep it to myself for the moment .

Im so hating tis someone each n everyday . its a she btw . yeahh .
I hate youu okaayyy!! Alloott!!!

2005-03-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Ouh goshh . missing him . =(

Wokie . eating my cookies right now . see , told u I was a cookie monster . huahuahua . hmms , I wanna cut my hair uhh . but Im sure dad wont let me cut it . hmphh . sigh . im bored . fucking bored . wee~ going to the beach tmr . yayness!* I cant wait! cousin[s] gathering . ahh . mish em!

K im done . toodles!

RAFIQ!!!!!!!!!
I love you , I miss you .
I so fucking miss you lahh! =(
*huggss*

2005-03-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Wee~ at last . im updating my blog . huahuahua . im tooooooooo n totally lazy to update . hurhur . ok went out jex now . wif my grandparents . yup2 . went geyLang . to eat breakfast as usual . grandpa bought me a baju . noicee! Wee~ thank u atuk! =D . okay . weekdays been packed for me . yeahh . I better give time sooonnn . ouh well . on Friday , I had an opportunity of lecturing my class . yupp .

mdm nora , our English teacher , asked me too . cos my class have been so uncooperative since starting of skewl . teachers are getting fed up wif my class . n im always getting all the scoldings . blearghs~ hate being the chairman . ouh gooshhh . y me?!!! I didnt make the noise . I didnt do anything , n im the one to be blame! N my class sucks okay . I noticed some teachers are trying their best to make their lessons enjoyable , but my class makes it seems so god damn bored . n some people in my class wants to study too , but my class just dun giv a damn care . always sitting wherever dey want to , n making their ouh-so loud noises . so the teachers are like dragging into my class to teach us . so yep . I lectured my class for about 30mins I tink . or more . I forgotten . yesh dey all kept quiet n listened to me . n all of dem make their sooooo damn bloody innocent faces . hurhur . come on guys , Ive known u all for the past 2yrs okay . pls lah . we are already in sec 3 , n ure all still fooling ard . like wth . u all shud be matured enuff to tink .

c pple . if my class fails a test , dey will always blame the teacher . come on la . is ur own mistake okay . the teacher is always trying their best , n yet u there making a lot of noises . n sumtimes sleeping . blearghs~ wadeva . is ur future . but pls , if u all dun wana study , dats ur problem , but pls , do me a favor , just at least keep ur big mouth shut so other pple can pay attention .

ok bla bla bla . dun wana talk much bout it larh . going to the beach wif grandma , kak norin , iskandar n maybe iqrak . so yeahh . cant wait! weE~ k lah . im off .

toodles~!

Im sooo totally miissiinnnggg my rafiiiqqqq!!
*mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-02-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

K so I stepped the och . yesh . Old Changi Hospital . I was so fucking scared okay . Lemah smangat abes! Went there in the afternoon just now . yupp . is in the afternoon , but still . creepy n things were heard . k I dun wanna talk abt it . I shouted on one of the part when everybody was freaked out when dear saw something while dear&zaid was exploring something . dear[s] face was all pale up . a room at the corner like that . its hard to explain . but it was dark . dats y everybody was freaked out . n dat was when I shouted my lungs out . hehehe . went there with dear,shaiful,shafiq,jazil,zaid,hafiz,leslie,bryan&syahmi . yesh I was the only girl . I wanted to get home actually , but dear forced me to follow . as I too wanted to see the place , I followed . n it was in the afternoon also . i thought it was gonna b fine , but .... hee . n I really cant imagine going at night . gosh . more creepy okay .

So called a new experience for me . heeh . my heart really2 drop okay . the place is so god damn big . im telling you , BIG! A warning to all the faint-hearted , dun ever go if you are scared okay . you may end up like me .

Dear took really good care of me . everywhere or anywhere he went , he will always hold tight on my hands or hug me tightly . he noes im scared . hee . & he will always give me a kiss whenever im really2 scared . reminds me of something , when he saw dis freaky thing at the room I mentioned earlier , when all of us ran out & I shouted loudly , he quickly came to me and grabbed me tightly . yesh I do feel he was shocked . I too quickly hugged him tightly . *mwah

Gosh . if I were to explained my day at the OCH just now , its gonna be one hell of a long entry . yupp . so I will just end it here .

Ouh yarh! I was telling my cuz abt my day jex now , she was facing the TV , I was telling the part dat im so scared off , den she suddenly shout , I shouted too! Haha . n I shouted so loudly okay! She freaked me out sia . rupe2 nya , she saw the American Idol password on the TV . fikirkn ape tah . haha .

K lahh . im so tired . I wanna sleep .
toodLes!

Loving my rafiq always . =)
*hugsss tighllyy*

2005-02-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

Happy valentines day!! Wee~

Sweet day today . woot ! =D .

He gave me a wallet , a bottle of perfume , rose , a cutie bear with hearts , and lollipops .
I returned with 2 clothes , a ring , a card , n a poem which I wrote it myself .

His friends snatched the card I gave though as he was reading it . so they read it , n gave sweet comments . I was shy . hehe .

Just chilled out with hafeez&hafiz aft skewl . hee . kecoh oi! Heheh . aft the hafiz&hafeez left , dear n me merayap2 . ahh . great day .

I luv u darling!
*huggs&kisses*

2005-02-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

Boo!! Heeh . im bored . lazy . just finished eating my ice cream . wee~ did my house work as usual . I mish my baby . =( .

Ouh well . I just realized dat im actually a cookie monster . huahuahua . ive been eating cookies lately . plus ice cream . weehee~ dear went och yest . I mean , in da morning . yup . dear&friends overnite . hafiz n all . I called him when he was in och . yeahh . creepy . woot! Den dey joined up group of pple dey dunch even noe . it was like 50+ pple . haha . yea .

Den suddenly dear msged n talked back bout my history . cos one of my ex was dere , yeah . followed dem to och . dear looked at my ex like a playboy . like one of those u noe , using gurls . so he talked back bout my history lah . he asked loads of ques n all . I answered them truthfully . when de last ques he asked , I gave up n I said to him, [its up to u lahh . ] tot he didnt replied back . but he did . I tot it was gonna b a very hurtful msg , but it was not . he replied in the msg, [ u , come here syg . put ur cheeks on the screen . take this, *mwahh* . I luv u so much k . I wont leave u , I promise . n pls stay wif me 4eva .] . it really touched my heart . I cried . rafiq darling , I wont leave you . I promise . *mwahh*

Hee . yes love do hurts at times . but love is wonderful too . if there isnt any hurt , it isnt love . im sooooooooooo crazy in love with you . *huggs*

2005-01-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

At last! Ma mum delivered da baby! Weee!! Its a baby gurL!!! Nyehehx! yeahh . babygurL!

Oh well . she is my step mum . but da baby is my real sis . cos she marry[s] my daddy , n summore the baby[s] name is under my dad[s] name . so yeahh . wadeva lahh . hehe . dad said the baby is a step sister to fifah&iqrak . alah . I dunnoe lah . confusing . so terbelit2 one .

K im off!

toodLes!

*I luv rafiq~!
*huggs*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DANIAL ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU .

Happy 15th birthday cuzzin!
*hugs&kisses*

2005-01-29T14:05:00.000+08:00

Ain[s] pit was great! Weehee!brought my adek along . ain[s] pit was over at pasir ris . near fisherman[s] village . yeah . everybody was there . the aunts , uncles , mummy, grandma n cousins . n the small2 lil cutie kids . except fot he daddy . heeh!nazeer n my adek seems like a twin . hahaha . they wore green together . haha . reach there at abt 7+ pm . left at abt 11pm . yeah . fun . great day . loads of pple . ain really have loaaddsssss of friends . huahua . dear got my disease . hehe . sorry dear . ive been coughing non stop . esp at night . so I cant sleep in peace cos of dis coughing . k wadeva .

I mish him already . cant wait to see him tmr . hehe . great night walking & strolling thru the beach wif him . I luv u darling! *mwahh*

2005-01-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

Wooott! Its been years I didnt update this bloggy . muahaha! K sorie2 . busy uhh . skewl skewl skewl . hurhurhur . k wadeva . tired currently . had tarian just now . before dat watched the guys play soccer . sec 3 normal acad&tech mix VS sec 4 normal tech . wehhee! Sec 3 won!! Wuhho! *applause!* . dear played very good just now . woot! *Melting* nyehehex . k so I sat under the sun . extremely hot . hehe . covered myself using Christopher[s] towel . heheh . joke ard wif nazeer , dear[s] bro . hehe . cutie him! den havta go up . cos my tarian starting . ughh! but I peep peep abit though . hehe!

Ughhh . I mish him . totally . his leg is in pain . poor him . =( . ouh well . I will update maybe tmr okays . wee . I guess so . hehe . k people! Nites nites!

Taking care!

I luv rafiq!
*mwaahhh*

2005-01-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

wuuttt! selamat hari raya haji! tired . had lotsa fun jex now! wuhhoo! crazzyy coussinnss! ouh well . new photos are up . just view my album . wahhas . if u wanna see lar . nyehehex . k lah . tired .

i love rafiq!
*-mwahs!

2005-01-17T09:41:00.000+08:00

Tired . restless . wuhhh! The camp was great! The games were all very fun! All wet&wild!!! weeheeE! We as a classmate gets closer together . =) . nightwalk was scary . all dark . den havta go down dis steep hill . a rope is ur guide to the place . taufiq was so caring . took care of me, hudah&Sheila . hehe . he always goes like , [eh yana maner ? yana ok tk ?] . teehee! Tk sia2 ader dier . huahuahua . jazil was great . handsome seyy! Dgn dr.mart dier . wee . da cheers was fun . esp the one on Friday . I was like shouting&shouting . haha . den the class was very sporting . daryl , me&taufiq did our cheers action . haha . all nonsense sia! Farnie !

But overall was a great camp . had really enjoyed myself .

Wuhh! I misshhhhhh ma rafiq!

To jazil ,

Thank you for always being there when im really in need . ure just a perfect friend in my book . thank you for comforting me just now . wif ur jokes n da stories u told me . im so touched wif you . heeh! Sucha great friend I have . thank you once again . stay happy , cool&handsome always . =)

wuhh! ngee ann oooiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
are you ready ?? ever readyyy!

2005-01-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

K so my hp died . =( . I send it to the doctor . heeh! Send it to nokia care over at parkway . took my turn . so did talk to the professionals of nokia . they said that my hp havta upgrade the software , WHICHH!! ALL THE THINGS IN MY HP WILL BE LOSTT! ALL LOST!! PICTURES , RINGTONES , MESSAGES!! URRGGHH! But nvm . im thinking of changing the number too . =) . so to the people whom I dunch noe n kept on msging me , go on n waste ur bloody prepaid/bill . =) .

K den went off to haig rd . to do some kitchen shopping . yeahhs . so did went to city plaza . bought a slipper there . heeh . den head home!

Saturday , 08 January 2005

Gurls day out! Heeh! Went out wif kak norin&kak nora . yupp . we were bored , so decided to catch a movie . watched ocean[s] twelve . fucking funny I tell u! hehe . was like laughing&laughing . teehee! Den bought a last minute cardigan over at Dano after dat . I bought an off-white colour while kak norin bought tha hot pink one . I bought shades too . yeahh . gonna buy another shades over at Far-east plaza . im eyeing on dat . heeh! Reached home at abt 11pm . =) .

Getting my hp tmr! Yippee! I hope dad sends me the warranty card by today . cos if I dun show the warranty card tmr , I will havta pay $26 . ssshheshh! I can use dat money n buy a new wallet or even a pants . or even a top from mng , esprit , Giordano or baleno . hhmm .

K im off!
*-mwahh

FUCKING MISS MY RAFIQ ALOTS!
Loving u darling! *muackks*

2005-01-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

Idiotic handphone!!!! My hp stuck!! Its jam !! urgghhh . im so pissed!! Was just sending an mms , den pooff! It restart by itself . den fm dere , stucked . jam . eeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

Wuhh! Its been a long time since I updated . waahaha! Kay its already 2005 . a new year ahead . gotta start afresh . yupp . study hard . heeh . skewl was ok . but I almost fell asleep on English&maths period . hehe . English did a lot of talking . maths a lot of stories . hurhur . im making myself sure not to sleep during English . cos I luv dat subject . teachers are boring . yup . except for my mother tongue & computer application . im still not sure for the science teacher yet . I hope he will be the great&sporty type . my form teacher is great . she do look fierce . but nop! Heeh .

daryl&me fighted for the chairperson&vice-chairperson position . I didnt wanna be the chairperson no more , im sick of it . haha . so the both of us played scissors paper stone . haha . I noe its lame . teacher lah! My teacher says whoever wins , will get to choose the position , chairperson/vice chairperson . hehe . n luckily , I won!!! Wuhooo! I told teacher I dun wanna be the in the committee department , but everybody wants me to be too . ugghh . k continue . so with proudly I said , I wanna be the vice-chairperson . haha . den daryl was like , what?!!!!!! . ehhh . so unfair!! Hahaha . too bad daryl . ure the chairperson . =P

but today , he says , [Liyana , I dun care , I wanna ask teacher to switch my place wif urs ] I was like , no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . but he wants too . hurhur . I hope he change his mind . hmph . cos I dun wanna be the chairperson!! Im sick sick sick of it .

k lets put dat aside .

went tmart wif hudah aft skewl . altered my school skirt . its long . heeh . bought that skirt like since sec 1 sia . till now cant wear . so havta alter . goshh . im so short . hmph! K den went over to mcdonald , had ice cream & fries . went back to skewl . waited for dear . den just chilled at skewl . watch people ard . hehe .went off at abt 4.20pm I guess . reach home den I straight went to my dreamland~ hehe . tired dey .

eh k la . im off . tired . heeh .
toodles!
-*mwahh
I love rafiq!
=)

2004-12-31T10:46:00.000+08:00

Its so fucking cold!! Bbbrrrrr!! Its currently raining heavily now . going off to geylang later . to meet obek sana there . den will wait for kak norin&kak sally to finish their work . hoping they will get a half day today . hhehe . kak sally bought me big fox bag for my tarian yest . so sweet of her . shopping sakan tul kakak sedara aku tuh . she bought loads of stuffs . she bought the mango sweater , shirts n everything . she went wif abg ayit yest . her boyfriend . yup . n today shes going shopping again . after she go out wif us . shes buying specs & a roxy wallet today . eee! So geram wif her . ouh n shes giving me her adidas shoe if she bought a new shoe . heeh! I like dat shoe a lot . dat day went to the beach , I wore her shoes , she wore my billabong slippers . heeh . gave back her shoe on Monday bcos shes working .

Ouh well . going sembawang/woodlands later wif grandparents , obek sana , kak norin&kak sally . not sure if abg zan is following or not . hhmm . im so hungry . heeh . n im so sleepy . slept at abt 5am yest . haahs! Cant sleep . just watched tv . heeh . luckily my adidas sweater is over here at marine parade . cos the Giordano sweater is abit thin . adidas sweater is better . heeh . eh k la . going off now .

Toodles!
*mwahh*

ouh wee . rafiq dear , I mish you!!! =(

2004-12-30T01:13:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to : Letter kills ~ [seven months]

Im super dooper tired . n im having my headache . i cant kena the rain actually , but I played in the rain just now . heeh! Im stubborn . duh . had my tarian just now . was late . haha . luckily abg zai havent reach . atikah was the punctual one , 11.15am . haha . all of us came like 12pm ?? hehe! Didnt do much . just dance for like 4-5 times . the other time was just choosing our costume . same old boring costume . heeh! Ouh gosh . schools reopening . ouh man . now Im not use to sleeping early . I am always sleeping at 3-4 am . im left to buy my skewl bag . yupp . same bag as dear! =) . well I hope it wont go sold out or wadeva . if it does , im gonna sue that shop!! Heeh!

Ouh n I met dear aft dat . ouh gosh!! At last!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Met him . I mish him a lot!!!! He was wif shaiful . chilled at pondok wif hanani , shidah , shaiful , dear & me for awhile . den everybody went off . so dear&me took bus 39 . went sumwhere . heeh . aft dat met jazil & all over at tamp[s] mcdonald . met up wif everyone den off to beach rd took mrt . just walked ard . kay jazil[s] good looking today . yup . wif dat hair . hhmm . but the rain spoiled his hair anyway . ahahaa! Drop down at lavender n it was raining heavily . hehe . so we ran . played in the rain . weehee! Dat was the cause of jazil[s] hair crushed! Hahaha! Jazil[s] disappointed cause the bag he was looking for was sold out . kesian dier! Well if he still want that bag , he will havta sacrifice paying by eight more bucks . yupp . awwww . kesian dier! Hmph . Kay but still good looking lahhh!!!!!!!!!! [ jazil , if ure reading this , I regret writing this ok!! ]

Ouh but my dear rafiq is even cuter~! =)) . so walked ard till abt 6pm . den I havta proceed home . dear&jazil accompanied me till the mrt station . reached home n straight called dear . =)

Ouh n jazil just got back home fm London . yup . seriously lah . not joking . heeh! He called me yest . cos he[s] internet is abit stuck , so I havta help him . so I checked his friendster . den he told me bout his trip to London . yupp . interesting ey! He has his own butler there . ceyy . haha . his stories uh I tell u , can make one hell of a storybook !!! haha . sucha long story he told me yest . heeh!

Kk im done . my hands are tired .
Toodles!
I luv my rafiq!! *big hugggsss*

Parapapapa . im loving him!
Haha! K im off!
*muacks

2004-12-29T14:11:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to : Simple Plan ~ [wont be there]

Im hungry!!!! Grrr!! K going off later to parkway wif grandparents & my lil cuz , nadiah . gonna eat at banquet . weee! Cant wait!! cos im super hungry . woke up at 12 just now . did house chores , & off I took my bath . den im here! Writing . yuupps . arghh! My stomach[s] growling . heeh . dat shows im truly hungry ok . hhmm . been thinking what to eat . im thinking of eating chicken noodles . *yums* . or shall I eat western food ? hhmm . ahaha . k wadeva .

Tarian is tmr . wee! Cant wait to dance for sec 1 orientation . gonna bring home the clothes & all tmr . ughh . heavy siakk . told cikgu not to make up for the sec 1 orientation , but cikgu wants us too . leceh kn! Is just a orientation . not a concert or sumthing . hmph . but nvm . ugghh . tmr tarian will be like 11.15am till 1.30pm. ughh! So damn late . cos the teacher[s] are having a lunch or sumthing uh . ok . so havta meet dear late . wee! Cant wait to meet him tmr . I mish him badly! Gonna give him a biggg huugggg~! Teehee!

Ok2 . I wanna go n get ready . before grandma changes her mind . ouh gosh . I will die of starving if she change her mind . cos she havent cook here at home . ok2 . better get going .

Toodles!!!
*-mwahh*

2004-12-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

dats abg zan! ahahaha .

2004-12-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

Yes my dear friend . forget somebody who dun love you but instead who plays with ur heart . dun let go the one who loves you a lot . you wont know that person may even be the one you will live with all ur life . realise my dear sister . I understand u . but pls , just dun because of him , we get separated . im only his friend . his usual friend . pls dun get anything bad in ur mind . think about it properly . dun be childish . u are matured enough to think & make decisions on your own . im always here for you . take care sis . luv ya . =)

2004-12-28T14:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just dun understand . my way of life , im friendly . I talk to anybody . if im being so good , & the other person is good to me too , they will think he likes me or wadeva . if im being so bad , the other person will say im very mean . so how am I suppose to be ? maybe I will be the kind of person who will be so anti social . fine den . I dun talk to anybody no more . I just dun understand people nowadays . nobody can ever understand my deepest feeling . only Allah noes how I feel . is it wrong to have a lot of friends ? haiz . fine , maybe I shall not talk to anybody . maybe that will solve the problem . no friends . im so disappointed when there[s] this two person said something to me yesterday . life sux sometimes . I just dun noe what to say already . can u people accept me for who I am ? . come on , just dun say abt me , look at urselves too . nobody is perfect .

Im totally disappointed with the way you people talked to me yesterday .

*sigh*

2004-12-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

Currently grooving to : Deestylistic ~ [Reminisce]

Wuhh . im like so darn bored okie . ouh n yarh~! I dun havta go to the doctor!!!!!!!!! Weeheee! No medicines for me!! =D .

Woke up at 12pm today . did my housework n all . den came online . chatted with loads of people . wahaha . it was so tiring . typing here&there . ahaks! Den chatted with ismaiL . stupid him . hahaha . k wadeva . den I had my bath . haha . bath at about 2.45pm . came out fm the toilet , dear called . asking bout the shoe I was referring to . I hope he like it . cos I like that shoe . ehehe! Supposed to go to the beach with grandma&nadiah . but ended up didnt go . so I slept . wahas . woke up & it was raining . the weather was a good time to sleep . so I couldnt wake up . shheeshh! Hahaha .

Uggh . fucking bored at home . daddy forced me to go back home sengkang . but I didnt want to . boring uh! No one . all I can do at sengkang is just using the computer & play the Playstation 2. hhmm . rather stay here . cos grandma always go here&there . hehehe! K ive got no more to write . Liyana outs!

Toodles!
*-mwahh

2004-12-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

Im glad everything[s] normal again . =) . no more misunderstanding no more . heeh . okie2 . lets get started . im super tired .

Just came back fm Jurong Point with kak norin & grandparents . yupp . walked ard , ate at banquet . took mrt home . my butt is super flat okie . imagine fm eunos to boon lay . then boon lay back to eunos . wuhh! Hehehh . hhmm . bought chocolates today . =D . cant wait to eat them!! Teehee!

sharifah called me just now . yup . talked abt what happened & everything . yupp . den we talked abt skewl shoes&bags . ugghh . im scared using dat shoe of mine . im gona get another white shoe , to use it on the first day . see if we can use the coloured shoes or not . cos I just remembered dat we can use like its suitable for P.E & skewl . which is like sport shoe . hmm . WADEVA IT IS , I am gonna buy another white shoe . wahaS! Den we talked abt taufik[s] album . yuup . den she havta put the fone down , going to her nenek[s] place or sumthing . n guess wad ?!! she said she havent erm , something uh . dun want to tell u guys bout it . hhahaha . guess tis only between me & her . haha . *wink wink* .

k people . im off!
*muacks

missing my baby rafiq .

2004-12-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

I just came back!! Shoppiinnggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wehehee .

Wwne tover to arb st just now . with grandparents , me , kak sally&kak norin . met up wif obek sana&abg zan over at arab st . went eat at ferst . after eating , went to Masjid Sultan to do our prayers . just went ard kampong jawa , there were like loads of lace . n its all very grand & beautifulll!! But too bad , hari raya just passed . hehehe! Saw mdm sharifah&her daughter at Aladdin[s] shop . hehhe! While obek was choosing her lace , abg zan brought us to one shop . yuup . that[s] were our shopping started . hehhe . bought two pants & one jeans . abg zan bought two pants if im not wrong , kak norin got one pants & kak sally got two . yup! We still havta go to the shop over at park lane .

Aft dat , went over to banquet at raffles hospital . yummeehh! Ate a lot! Kak sally, kak norin , abg zan&me was like talking abt our past . hahahaha . funny sehhs! N we were like talking&laughing at the banquet like its our father[s] banquet . hahaha . but wth . we dun care . =P . den walked ard at bugis junction . so we all went off . kak sally meeting her friends , grandparents going home , abg zan&obek sana too . kak norin&me went over to beach rd to search for my shoe . got myself a converse shoe . beach rd , but! Still expensive! Da price is the same as the original converse shop . so yeahh . its comfortable . blue in colour . no black . ugh . but nvm . skewl shoe . wth .

Took cab to orchard rd . weehee! Just walked ard over at Far East plaza . den off we took mrt to paya lebar . just to eat over at Long John silver . hahaha . took cab home . =D

I mish ma baby loads . =(
K take care people!
*-muacks!

2004-12-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Ok great . im sickk!!! I hate it . ughh . flu flu flu . sneeze sneeze sneeze . cough cough cough . I hope I dun havta go to the doctor . even if I have to , I wont go . cos I HATE MEDICINES!!! Hehehe . I will be very stubborn when it comes to doctor & medicines . wakakaka! Can still remember the last time when I was sick , dear brought his medicine , n he had to feed me , cos he noes I wont eat the medicines . ehehehe! Ouh well . stop talking bout this medicines thingy . hate them . hehe .

Had lunch over at parkway parade with grandma . yup . then went over to NTUC fairprice , bought all the kitchen stuffs . den went over to popular , to buy my stationeries while waiting for kak norin&kak sally to finish werk . they had half day . bcos its Christmas eve . yup . went home aft dat . abt 5.30pm , went east coast park wif grandma , kak norin&kak sally . we rent a bike . yeahh . unplanned , dear was dere also . hehe . so happiee! Met him over at lagoon . shaiful was dere too . ahhh . mish him! he accompanied shaiful to meet seha or sumthing . yup .

Kak norin , kak sally & me was very noisy ok . we laughed like hell , talked on certain things . hahaha . keccohh! dats only the three of us . imagine wif kak nora & abg zan ? n nadiah , iqrak , irfan . hahha . more keccohhh I tell u! heeh!

Kak sally is sleeping here today . at marine parade . we the three gurls wanna hang out wif grandma tmr . going over to kampong jawa @ arab street . dunch noe what grandma going there for . yupp . I wonder if the shops are all open . since its Christmas day . yeahh . hhmm .

Toodles!
*-mwahh

2004-12-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

This post/entry is now for this pathetic lady , which thinks shes the only one can use all those roxy stuffs or wateva .

Well hello lil lady .

I noe uve like been using roxy for a long time . so?! look here , its people[s] fucking shit to use those stuffs ok . yesh maybe their following the trend , maybe some are seriously not . maybe some just discovered actually roxy stuffs are comfortable or sumthing . look , they may be mats/minahs . so?! Its their own fucking shits lar . u go n take care of ur own ass ok ? ouh n yarh . u dun havta post sumthing abt sharifah at ur blog . just spill ur shits to her lah if u are referring to her . u dun hav to write it at ur fucking blog . maybe by just what I have just said , maybe now u shud noe whu u r . uh-huh .

To sharifah , just dun give a damn shit on her lah okaes! *mwahh* =)

2004-12-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

Had my tarian again just now . yup . was so slack uh . wore skirt n my slippers . yeah . changed my bag with hanani . cos she wants to use my bag . uh-huh . was late for tarian just now . but luckily bumped into hanani&shidah at the toilet . hehe .

Ouh well . tarian was tiring ok . I dunch noe when the song of the dance is gonna finish . some of us the dancers are taking part in two items . one is for the SYF Competition 2005 , which is sumwhere ard april next yr , I cant wait!!! & the other one is for the sec one orientation . I prefer dancing the sec one orientation for the SYF competition 2005 . cos the songs & the steps are lovely . =) .

According to abg zai , our instructor , he[s] going to compose a song especially for us . yup . for our SYF competition . yeahhs . ouh well . adek got Bedok Town Secondary . ouh gosh . I dun really like dat skewL . ouh n dear[s] lil cute bro , got ngee ann sec . yeahh . can see his cuutteee face everyday . hehe . hhmm . mum took leave today . to appeal for adek[s] skewl . wanna change fm bedok town to bedok south sec . yup .

Ouh I havent finish my story for today . hehe . k silly me . ended tarian at abt 4.15pm . yup . tiring . very tiring . shaiful&dear waited for us . ended tarian , marked the attendance & all . den off on our way to the toilet . hehe . thought of topping up my water , but dear bought a drink for me already . how sweet of him! thankiew dear ! =D .

Just chilled at pondok wif dear&shaiful . hanani went off to Thomson rd , off to her uncle[s] shop . yup . so left the three of us . just slack ard . uh-huh . den shaiful went off at abt 6pm . so left me&dear slacking ard at the pondok . yuup . so to waste our time , we went off sumwhere . at abt 7pm , we left home . I mish him already!! =(
Tired , I forgotten to call dear . I accidentally went off to my dreamland . hehe . until he had to msg kak norin & ask if im home or not . cos he was worried . im sorry darling! Hhmm . my phone got confiscated by dad . hur hur . cos dat day I came home late . but nvm , at least I can still use da comp&go out . heeh .

2004-12-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

I forgotten to blog bout sumthing . hehe .

Dear gave me a sweet necklace for our 7th month anniversary . =) . he said mum choose it . yup . its blue in colour . his mum said dat pink is better , but pink has no stock left . so yeah . he got me a bLue one . thank you dear.

He gave it to me yesterday . he wore it for me in de bus . he opened my necklace , n replaced it wif the necklace he gave . thankiew once again darling . I appreciate it alot .

As I was in my room alone , suddenly something struck my mind . I remembered the time during hari raya . the day when we all went out together for the third/second time of hari raya . I remembered when I was so angry wif hanani . dat it also involved rafiq&me fighting . yup .

I can still remember I stood beside the expressway . n he went over the river[s] fence . we were mad at each other . it was so bad ok . I kept on crying . one step for me , n im dead . I can b hit by a car if I took one more step forward . I cried when I tink dat back . the both of us almost give up . it was when dear decided to meet me at saint Patrick[s] bus stop . so we met . n he asked me if I do really luv him . so I said yes of coz I do really love u . we hugged . n he cried . he cried badly . it touched my heart a lot . dat I did cry too . he hugged me tightly n kissed me on the cheeks . it was a long hug . I almost gave up on my life on dat day .

my dear rafiq , if u are reading this , deep deep down from the bottom of my heart , I love you . you brighten up my life , you healed my big pains , & you were always there for me . I just cant imagine how my life is gonna be without you . I did not even believe in love again when dat someone leaves me & was just using me for the time being .it was then when I started to hate guys & I did not believe in love no more . but my life changed . my life changed because of you . in my heart , theres only you . the memories dat we had will always be on my mind .

the dreams & promises that we made & shared , I promise you, that it will come true . seriously you can never be replaced . because I believe , dat I will never ever get a guy like u once again .

Happy 7th month once again darling .
I Love You .
[19.05.04]
*hugs&kisses*